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Have you been able to talk to new T about this?
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HazelGirl PTSD, Depression, ADHD, Anxiety Propranolol 10mg as needed for anxiety, Wellbutrin XL 150mg |
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No. She's just been doing basic assessment stuff, asking me about my childhood, family, friends, memories, etc to try to get a fuller picture of my life...I might talk about it with old T when I see her tomorrow, but I don't think she will be particularly helpful.
Honestly, I just want to go in tomorrow and cry and say, "I'm sorry, T! Please just love me." Yeah, that's not going to happen. Also, she wouldn't. |
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HazelGirl PTSD, Depression, ADHD, Anxiety Propranolol 10mg as needed for anxiety, Wellbutrin XL 150mg |
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I don't know if she knows me well enough yet to have a nuanced understanding of the situation...but maybe I'll bring it up with her. Ugh. I know it's a learning experience, but it just hurts so much that mentor figure is there physically, but emotionally she's on another planet. She isn't sweet with me anymore. She doesn't tell me she likes talking to me or looks forward to our visits; it's all business and when you're done, you're done and goodbye. We don't even talk about Judith Butler anymore...
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I am sorry. It is very painful.
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HazelGirl PTSD, Depression, ADHD, Anxiety Propranolol 10mg as needed for anxiety, Wellbutrin XL 150mg |
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I did. She let me talk, but she didn't say anything in response. She just didn't seem interested in engaging in discussion with me. She said something generic like, "That's interesting," and then asked if I had any more questions about my essay, and when I said no, she opened the door for me and ushered me out.
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#34
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Sounds like your mentor figure can't take a request without shutting down... maybe she's the one who needs a mentor. I suppose that doesn't help you any though....
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#35
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I have tried out a good number of them. After interviewing over 30, I have two I can tolerate. They are useful in different ways.
Sometimes it takes checking out a lot of them before finding one that meets your needs.
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Please NO @ Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. Oscar Wilde Well Behaved Women Seldom Make History - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. |
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Please don't...if she has hurt me in any way (unintentionally), I know it's only because she cares about me so much and feels really guilty that her benign childhood tale upset me so much and she doesn't want to risk upsetting me again, and also just the constraints of her position. There's no fault in it and there's no need to speak ill of her. I saw the look on her face when I told her that; she was very, very distressed that she might have unintentionally done something to hurt me. She is being careful now. Misguided? Yes. Malicious? A reflection of her competence? A moral failing? Absolutely not.
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