[Lamplighter]

I’m sure this sort of thread has been started before so apologies if I’m treading on anyone’s toes or seeming to double up, I just wanted a place to post about how I’m feeling on a day to day basis when I’m unable or don’t have the time to post proper threads or replies to others (which seems to be a lot lately).

Please feel free to post whenever you like, as often as you like, there’s no obligation to respond to anyone else, this is purely a means of being here, of getting the benefit of community, without the pressure of having to post replies to others.



So for me, I feel rubbish – don’t know what’s going on or even what’s wrong and definitely don’t know what to do about any of it. I’m so tired of it and so tired of trying to understand it . Isn’t therapy supposed to help with all this ****?

[gayleggg]

I'm feeling a bit strange today. My doctor raised one of my medications yesterday and added Wellbutrin XL. I started both today so I'm sure they are causing this feeling. A little dizzy and disoriented. Gotta love these psych meds. Right now I'll take any change they can manage it's got to be better than the depression I've been having,

[LadyShadow]

I think is an awesome idea for a thread. I think I am going to use it for how I feel after a therapist's appointment or a pdoc appointment, because I am feeling pretty good right now.

[Lamplighter]

I know I said there's no obligation to respond to anyone, but I just wanted to say PH that's a great idea. Check in thread not just for misery and gloom and doom (such as I'm feeling right now ). Positives welcome too

[stopdog]

I did not go today and it has been quite pleasant. No debilitating frustration and rage when I don't go.

[healingme4me]

I agree, I like this type of daily check in thread, too! Hey why not? (lest of course, it's already done, out there, and naturally, who wants to step on toes, surely not anyone I know of )

On a positive note, gosh, I am soooo stressed at the moment, but um, ok...
I am taking proactive steps, to change my life. But these, steps are so very hard, difficult and filled with stress. Because, I can't just think of me.

Ideally, of course I get my T's, reactions/responses to when I am discussing what I am dealing with with my ex. Yeah, I am a survivor of an abusive situation, and no, I can't even with a divorce, just up, and do what I need to do, to ensure that I've as little contact with him, as possible. And it's really, really stressful. If it were, up to me, alone, I'd do what needs to be done. But I cannot. And I am stressed feeling stuck, can't have my way, blah blah blah! ((well, I don't know if I can't have my way, yet, but ...*sigh*))

Thanks for starting this thread Lamplighter and I hope you start to feel better soon.
I feel rotten today, I don't want to go to t tomorrow for the first time ever.

[sittingatwatersedge]

feeling apprehensive

reached out to T today, how wonderful she was there for me.

[BonnieJean]

tired, very

[Wren_]

reached out to T, he wasn't there for me
feeling - bad

I have no idea where one of my Ts was today...seems like he talks almost too much and then not enough...and so it goes, every other session. And when he talks too much he completely misses the mark on things, but when he doesn't talk at all I can't connect with him.
I also need some kind of goals or structure because this is completely useless otherwise. It might be anyway.
So now I just feel like crap.

[growlycat]

Work made me super irritable.

Yesterday's cbt t sessions was kind of blah--he seems fidgety and checked-out. I know his consulting work and travel is busy right now.

Feeling quite stroppy today... Just one of those days. I need to talk to my t, but havent heard from her for a few days and dont know when i will talk to her again, worried as usual that she isnt ok, and it has been a full year since i saw her and i miss her so much and i wish she was able to come home.

just...sad

[sunrise]

Feeling kind of overwhelmed with my new job. A little resentful about some of the extra things they are requiring me to do. Also kind of overwhelmed with the responsibilities of taking care of my mother's needs as her memory grows ever worse.

It has been a decent day; nothing earth-shattering. Accomplished a lot of planning at work which makes me feel better.

Starting to get a bit worried about my husband's health. For about a month now, he's had a very high white blood count. They've been checking it every week and it just isn't getting better. The last couple of days he's also had a fever at times of around 102. I suspect he's in for more tests.

[rainbow8]

I feel happy because I had a good session today! That makes such a difference to me. I'm also very tired because I went to zumba in the morning and took a walk with a friend in the early evening. I'm going to sleep early!

I'm frustrated about a volunteer job I started a couple of years ago. I'm stuck, and don't know what I'm supposed to do. Sorry, I'm not comfortable giving more details but the situation makes me feel like I failed.

[purplejell]

Anxious, anxious. So intense. Keep trying to tell myself the "right" things, but it doesn't make the anxiety go away. Wish someone knew how sick I feel inside and how much I wish for some kind of peace. Waking up crazy early in the mornings and it makes for a super long day. It's like a physiological runaway train and I can't put the brakes on.

[Patagonia]

I'm imploding. I've totally lost my footing. I don't wanto see T's tomorrow. Can't wait to stare @ the carpet for 45min & listen to all the conversations in my head. Need a blizzard, food poisoning, a plague, something so I have an excuse not to go.

[Lamplighter]

Feeling hungover , but at least not beating myself up for acting on the impulses I had when a tad out of it last night (one of which being to start this thread!)

[~EnlightenMe~]

Like a zero.

Feeling better after taking a valium earlier. I really should give myself permission more often.

[tealBumblebee]

I'm using this as a post session check in as well:

Didn't have anything to talk about in t today - thought it would be a dud. T picked up quickly on this though and she changed up session a bit. Today, instead of past, safety or mommy issues, we talked about things that evoke an emotional response (particularly happiness) in me. I enjoyed the light chatter and she enjoyed getting to see another facet of me. She was able to see me "wake up" a bit from my emotional nothingness and was very excited about it. All in all, we both agreed - it was a great session. So yay! =]

[HealingTimes]

[healingme4me]

Took my T's advice, last from last session 'are you writing this down', well I sat there ard 'wrote it down', yes, yes I did I took notes, on a legal pad, no less