Still not doing terribly well, but I'm managing. Still having stomach problems with meds that I need to figure out. Not sure which med is the culprit.

[Lamplighter]

Bit anxious about T today as I've resolved (again!) to bring up a topic that I know in advance will be emotionally fraught.

Also feel like I'm running to stand still, so many things to do and what feel like obligations and I just want to get off the ride for a bit.

[growlycat]

physical pain. emotionally fine.

[ShrinkPatient]

A little bummed about missing therapy Friday because of the holiday, but feeling positive about therapy in general. Today anyway

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[healingme4me]

What is learned in therapy, as a child? Came up today. It seems, second nature, to move into a centered state of mind(similar to a zen frame of mind). Relaxation techniques? I am thankful, for it, whatever the approach was. I want to say, I had a couple different therapists. Just wondering.

Reflecting, backwards, for a child that wasn't really a troubled child, just going through life changes, that therapy seemed appropriate, I am wondering. My first sessions, I remember, board games and talking. My second round, talk, perhaps a LISW? The first, I want to say PhD. The third, was a couple sessions, until mom heard what she needed to hear.

[Patagonia]

Weary. In body, mind & soul. Bone tired & weary.

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[monstermash]

I am very confused right now. I am practicing setting boundaries with friends and my bf and not sure if they are responding well. i end up questioning if i am doing whats right for me, especially when they dont like the new me.

It has been a marvelous Thanksgiving holiday. My family is spread all across Texas (which is no small area) and even one in Minnesota, so we rarely are able to all get together in the same place at the same time. In fact, I think that last time we were completely all together was almost three years ago at my sister's funeral.

This year, though, they all came to our house -- all 17 of us. Four generations. The oldest 83. The youngest 5 months. It has been just wonderful. So much to be thankful for with my family.

[archipelago]

I'm fighting with a major depressive episode that appears to be seasonal which is a drag because that means it may occur again and again. When it started, we looked at my chart, and were both surprised that every mid-November for the past 3 years, this has happened. I haven't had to take meds really, just something for sleep, but now I've started a cocktail and it's not working yet. I have absolutely no energy, little desire to do anything and hardly am eating or taking care of basics, like laundry or even showering. It really sucks.

[Patagonia]

Apprehensive about upcoming T appt on Wednesday & I see both of them which means double trouble. I feel like I'm walking into the principal's office waiting to get repremanded. Not a great structure for sharing feelings.

Trying to figure out this inpatient set up. I wanto go after Xmas. Will it still be "medically necessary" then, to get insurance to cover it? Do I wanto do all this leg work. & find out I'm turned away? Am I ready to do some serious work & make some changes? Scary to think about! Too many questions!

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[BonnieJean]

Feeling very down inside and sometimes anxious. On the outside, trying to project 'okay' for my visiting family. Cooking and cleaning. Running out of energy and feeling discouraged with myself. Not feeling good about getting back to work on Monday, either.

[RTerroni]

There was just a major blowup at my house, where things ended up getting thrown and broken, so I am very upset right now.

[healingme4me]

Therapy, approaching, this week. I'm going to have to look at my calendar, see what point I left off, so I can pick right back up. Been a couple of Weeks.

Remembered, why, with a drained phone battery, December 5th, sounded like a date that mattered. My employee, has surgery.

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[growlycat]

Still feeling ill from this week's food poisoning. So annoyed that I still have symptoms!!!

[pmbm]

Feeling pretty good. Working on hard memories in therapy, but able to get through the week without a crisis

[kardiackardinal]

Who is T? If it's ok I ask. Also to check in, I'm not doing to well tonight. Haven't been sleeping well.

[SheHulk07]

Just feeling blah. Stressed, anxious, and really don't want to talk to my therapists this week because I know I screwed up this weekend. Ugh..

[VxVx]

Lost, I don't know what to do :/.

[tealBumblebee]

{Post Session Check-In}

[I've realized I write these more for myself (to help process); perhaps i'll start a little journal for this instead...]

T Session today was great. It was a bit funny and light hearted and because of such ease we moved through so many topics (last weeks session, some of my conspiracy theories, my tendency to isolate, religion, the holidays, self harm update, anxiety levels, how I pull away from people, future desires, etc.) She couldn't identify my mood (neither could I) but she dealt with it appropriately and the session actually felt long (I much prefer "long" sessions over short sessions). I don't know what more to say but I really do love that woman.

very drained raw and exposed..EXTREMELY long hard session and painful memories processing today and the floodgates came crashing open. ugh

[Petra5ed]

After obsessing over my therapist and psychology in general, and reading beaucoup internet sights on transference and related stuff, I think I'm finally ready to walk into therapy and be honest about some things I've been scared to talk about, namely my intense feelings of desire and preoccupation with my therapist. But I've thought this before and I wasn't ready. So I guess I'm a combo of titillated about my next session, and wondering if I will just sit there like a zombie again, slash going into my obsessive mode as is my habit this time of day. Now it's time for me to spend a couple hours playing mindless games on my cell phone. JK, I'm going to try avoid the mindless games for a bit.

I'm feeling like I hope you all have a great rest of your day!

[Rzay4]

Anxious about family therapy.

I have a thangover.

Headed back down again now that the family is gone. It is a very busy and stressful week. I have chorus rehearsals every night as our Christmas concert series begins Friday. I have 4 concerts each weekend for the next three weekends.

I am taking Saturday night off to attend my son's Madrigal Dinner (medieval choir/dinner concert), so that will sort of be a change of pace (still choir and still a concert though). December is just going to be very busy and stressful until the concerts are over. It is what it is.

I see my pdoc tomorrow and T next Monday, so that will be good. Just hanging in there I guess.

[neutrino]

Very low. And lonely (not in an I-need-social-interaction kind of way). I feel like things will never be ok and that I'll never be understood.

I really wish that I, for once, could post something positive. But no. I don't know what being positive feels like. Sorry.