[~EnlightenMe~]

My T had to cancel my session this week. I am doing okay, I think.

[Hopelesspoppy]

Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

Feeling better after taking a valium earlier. I really should give myself permission more often.

I react so badly to Valium. Always have. Would love to have a Xanax though....

[DelusionsDaily]

Very vulnerable and extremely angry

[2or3things]

Crappy.

My partner and I are both furloughed due to Gov shutdown, so I've had to cancel with T. (I normally see her twice/week.) So I saw her Monday and told her I was cancelling today, and we'll see about next week, and she just didn't even seem to get why I might be anxious. (Hello? T? Have you heard anything I've said in the last 4.5 years?!)

I feel like she just expects me to "get over" the fact that I have an effed up attachment system. I get that it's been forever with her and she hasn't totally screwed up in that time. Still, I don't feel like I've learned any particular skills or made any changes with her help when it comes to attachment. I don't feel like she has a plan or even thinks she needs one.

So now, of course, I'm wondering if I need her at all.

Blech. I totally hate this.

Thanks for letting me vent what I'm feeling.

deeply deeply disappointed

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Sounds good, Teal.

[Aloneandafraid]

Had surgery earlier in week & feel sore and emotional. Shouted at all evening by H who hates me. Boss being difficult about time off work. Seeing T later but don't see the point as I am never able to let her see how desperate I am. It's all 50 minutes of surface stuff and I'm on my way to struggle through another week. Kids are picking up on tension at home (teenagers). Life is one big mess. I am at breaking point. Sorry.

[elliemay]

Struggling. Lots of upsets at work. It's tough to keep it in perspective. Very tough. I cried a little on Tuesday.

Thank goodness I have an office.

a little better and a little more hopeful in this moment ♥
for all who need or want them

[granite1]

trying to be strong on my own

[pbutton]

I feel absolutely terrible.

Got back from Vacation Tuesday evening and had a great time only that my daughter whom has autism was greatly distressed at times.

Saw T today and she wants me to do a self soothing box, Not really done anything like this before.

[RTerroni]

As you can see from my mood it is Roller Coaster right now- I am very much having my ups and downs.

[Aloneandafraid]

Originally Posted by Liverbird

Got back from Vacation Tuesday evening and had a great time only that my daughter whom has autism was greatly distressed at times.

Saw T today and she wants me to do a self soothing box, Not really done anything like this before.

Self soothing box Sounds interesting.. Let us know how that goes.

[rainbow8]

I feel good!!

[BonnieJean]

I left t feeling worse than when I went in. I hate when that happens.

[Blue_Bird]

I feel good, I met my new T and things went well

I'm feeling pretty decent. Students have Friday and Monday off. I have inservice meetings tomorrow (yuck), but I do have Monday off so that will be nice.

It has been a good week with my students. It has been a rough start to the school year; far too many students with no sense of academic responsibility. They were a bit babyfied at their old school from what we can tell, so it's been a tough breaking-in period. They are finally getting with the program and realizing we really do expect them to do the work and meet deadlines. It's been a battle though. Starting to see most of them turning it around.

My own sons are having excellent school years so far. My senior who had so many problems last year has undergone a complete transformation in personal responsibility, work ethic, and overall mood and attitude. He's marching the competition show this year and it completely proud of himself and his band. This is competition month (it will actually go to mid-November because they are going to Indianapolis for Grand Nationals), so we have no life until marching season is over. Lots of fun though.

Today was a better day than yesterday. My husband has BPD and went off the deep end again yesterday morning. I've gotten very good at setting boundaries with him though, and he stopped himself, rethought what he was doing and saying, and came back to rationality fairly quickly this time. Thank goodness. I was about to punch him in the nose (not really). He better appreciate having me as such a patient, understanding wife. I swear anyone else would have left him.

[growlycat]

old. Just got back from happy hour with my much younger coworkers.

[blur]

feeling quite stressed as i'm dealing with a plumbing issue that i had no idea would turn into such a big pain and got a really expensive estimate. getting another estimate tomorrow.

i do really liking my new T so far. she's currently on vacation.

[yoyoism]

Super tired.. got about 5-6 hours of sleep last night.. signing off now. (not literally, just going to bed)

[LadyShadow]

Saw my T today. Was a good session, I feel pretty good. He said just take in what we discussed and think about making a real change. I think I am going to get up tomorrow and do something different.

Feeling really crappy. Have been indulging in behaviour that I know is selfdestructive. Don't know how to stop doing that. I hate myself. So much.

[pbutton]

I feel like a giant mess.

[BonnieJean]

emotionally spinning around with nothing to hold on to