What happened?

Something keeps coming to mind about my last T session that I posted about. Whilst I was sitting, all "locked up" I remember being very distant and trying to pull myself back, I remember rubbing my hand across the bottom of my nose, as if in a soothing motion and then I kinda of grunted an acknowledgment to myself, I think. I remember T saying, "what happened then?" Then I sort of pulled myself back enought to say, "I don't know" like I always say, but this time T said "well maybe in 6 months time or in the session even, we will be able to talk about it and understand it" But understand what? my strange grunt? I guess looking back at it now whilst I'm fully aware, it was like I was having a converstation with a ghost?

I don't know why but I feel slightly afraid to ask her what she meant by this. But something must be bothering me because it keeps popping up into my mind.

...or some inside conversation that you weren't fully aware of?

When I was ill as a child, my mother would brush my hair and smooth it against my head in her lap...very comforting. Sometimes, when I need soothing, I find myself running my hand through my hair in like fashion.

Perhaps it means nothing, but perhaps it is something similar for you?

TC