[Soccer mom]

I should be glad that I have a session this afternoon. After all, it's what I've been waiting for. Instead I find myself dreading it knowing it will only be 50 minutes and then another week to wait.
I'm also in this weird state of being able to recognize my transference reactions about half the time. So, while I know what I really need from her, I also know where it's coming from and feel childish for bringing it up. It would almost be easier to be back in the fog. I'm worried I'll be even more guarded now knowing how irrational my feelings are.
Has anyone else felt this way (either situation)?

[rainbow8]

WhyYes, I've been there. Childish feelings in therapy are nothing to be ashamed of. They're normal for many of us and your T can help you accept them. I know what you mean about looking forward to the session. It's a kind of high, and then afterwards you feel a low. Used to happen to me all the time. Somehow, I can "hold" onto her between sessions now.

It will help if you try not be guarded with your T. It's her job to help you with any and all of your feelings. I hope your session goes well.

I've been there with the - it's only 50 minutes and it'll be over quickly feeling. I feel like a child too. I don't have any answers. Once a week is hard, now I understand why they used to do psychoanalysis five times a week.

[ScarletPimpernel]

Don't feel ashamed for feeling childish. It can sometimes be a good thing. I remember one time I was acting very child-like in therapy, and my T just had the sweetest smile on her face. I asked her why and she told me that my child-likeness brought up the her inner child and she thought it was beautiful.

Try not to control everything. It's okay to go into therapy sometimes and just be. Sometimes those sessions can be more helpful then when you go in with a plan. I know 50mins is short...and waiting a whole week to get another 50mins is forever. I still struggle with that. I actually have an app on my phone to countdown to my next session.