[mackieandi]

I am terrified of my therapist I just think I am a bad person now I mean I asked about the card thing for social work month and I dont know its made me terrified of her and going to see her anymore. What if she thinks im bad? I dont know I just feel really not good now cause I feel like that a card is wrong I was trying to be nice I tell her what I think too but I think no one is going to like me cause I do that. I know maybe im just dumb but I am terrified of therapy now. I mean really terrified. I trusted her but now I just dont know cause of things I have been told not just here but from other friends. I am sorry maybe therapy was the worst idea ever just a thought.

Thanks for listening I hope I didnt offend

Mackieandi, I thinkn we all have those feelings concerning T and about ourselfs, this is what good sessions are made up from. I'm sure your be fine and T will be too. its all "grind for the mill" goes the saying!

Good luck

[bipolar_bear]

I have found that therapy and the feeling about therapists changes as the relationship grows. I am sure your therapist does not nor will think you are bad although I can understand your feelings as I periodically go thorugh that myself. I know it is scary but sometimes the best thing is to discuss your fears about your therapist and therapy in general directly with your therapist. I think you will be surprised at the answers you recieve.

I hope soon you will be able to put your concerns about the card behind you. Sometimes there is no right nor wrong but just what fits the relationship between the two of you.

I hope you decide to continue therapy as I would like to see you get the support you seem to want. Good luck on your decision. I am sure you will make the right one for you.

[WinterRose]

Therapists handle these things really well. Pdocs can too. I wrote a rather pointed letter to my pdoc ealier on and was so petrified that I didn't take his calls. I had to stop by his office and he happened to come out and see me and took me back to his office without an appointment. I was so scared and mortified - would he be angry - would he refuse to have me as a client any more? He just talked to me about it and said I had been pretty right on and he appreciated the letter even though I said hard things. It was an opportunity for me to learn that he wouldn't send me away even when I did something 'wrong.'

[lauren_helene]

Try not to be afraid. She isn't going to think you are 'bad'...I felt that way many times when I wrote a letter or told him how I feel about him etc.

It hasn't changed a thing and it won't for you either...

[Soidhonia]

Hello Mackie.
I am sorry you are struggling with this issue at this time. Why not just send the card and know that your therapist will think they are appreciated by their client. Try to think positive that you are making your therapist feel more appreciated and letting them know that you are thankful for their help. I hope the best for you. Take care and good day. Soidhonia

[Irine]

i know what your porblem is. the fear that the tehrapist will think you are bad is coming from luck of self confidance and self asteem or such.
i had myself thoughts about people "do they think i am bad?" adn i must say they are hateful. i understand how you feel.

well, chill out everyhting is o.k
and if your therapist is really professional he/she is not judgmental and will know how to handle it.
if you really want to get better i suppose you will overcome somehow and try to trust your T. they are here for us to HELP us. not to judge or to threatn.