Couch 83: In a world where...

that is awesome, you go girl! you got this!!

Ugh. Think I have the flu. I feel like death warmed over. And here I was looking forward to my 3-day weekend and instead I expect I'll be spending it feeling like crud.

Damn. Sorry to hear that. Hopefully it's just a quick one so you can still enjoy some of your weekend.

Unfortunately, this one has been lasting a good week in everyone I know who has had it recently. My son and his fiancee are just getting over it, not to mention all those walking germs that I teach every day. I've had kids missing a week at a time.

I feel off tonight. I don't like it. It's such a mix of emotions, but not whole ones. Like a bit of this and a bit of that. I don't even think that makes any sense... How can I feel a bit of an emotion, but not the whole thing? Maybe I feel it, but not overpowering... It's like a combination of scared, sad, confused, guilty.... Which is a strange combination for me.

Oh that's no good. I hope it doesn't last that long for you. Have some tea and soup.

We all got a cold over Christmas. My kids got it first and I don't even know where from.

I feel so empty tonight so numb. I need to sob. I need to cry - but I can't it's stuck. I've never begged to cry before - I'm begging now. I feel so strange, I don't understand these emotions. I don't understand anything today. I feel a thousand things but my mind is silent. My body aches from built up emotional pain that won't leave me.

Blah. Blah. Blah. I should be in bed. Night, PC. Sleep well.

Took more cold meds; heading back to bed. Night folks.

3 days to go! 3 days to go! I wish I could just sleep for 2 days but I've run out of olanzapine, so much for making fun of my T and GP.

I hope you get some relief soon.

Night.

Good luck. Hope you get some rest. Night.

Almost there! 3 days is not too bad.

Morning couch! Well after talking with t yesterday afternoon about it and getting myself all excited I am officially a Girl Scout again! That was the best part of my life growing up, I worked at GS camp during the summers through college, and have missed it. So I joined again as an adult and am starting to look for volunteer opportunities doing outdoors-y stuff with troops. Feeling really energized by this decision! Hope everybody has/is having a good day.

I did not read something late last night I knew would piss me off and I did not want to be pissed off at the moment.

That's great! Good for you for joining up. I'm sure it'll be great.

You have willpower.

I'm like a moth to a flame most of the time. I just can't help myself. I end up reading whatever I was avoiding and then I'm stuck dealing with the aftermath which is myself. I should probably work on that.

Today, I went to the funeral of a relative I was quite fond of. It was in another part of the country, so I flew there this morning, and I had decided to go back home again tonight instead of staying overnight and flying back tomorrow. I'm regretting that now... I would have liked to stay a little with my northern relatives. But I am very glad that I decided to go at all - I was wavering a lot back and forth for all kinds of silly reasons.

That's good you went. I would probably be wavering too... except I am not sure I would go. In fact, I typically haven't in the past. I have only ever gone to one funeral.

Why do I always feel as if i am invalidating other peoples feelings when I post. I don't feel like I have a right to express anything...Supportive interpretive dance for all.

BPA - post away - and a supportive interpretive dance shall accompany you.

Of course, I am not known for my ability to validate feelings - so keep that in mind should my dance fall short.

I second this. Post away.

Sorry its just Mast's post triggered my "last known dinosaur" button and I feel I should re-start my contacts to distant relatives in UK. I don't want Mast to stop posting as these are my issues. and I need to deal with them.

I have never found you invalidating, scientifically observational, unbiased are just some of the words i can think of.

BPA - here is my dance for you:

Just some domestic rubbish. Does anyone have a porcelain kitchen sink? If so, what do you use to clean it? How do you get the scuff marks out?