'85: "We Are The (Couch) World..."

Walking mostly. It's more effective in the sunshine, but even cloudy walking is better than nothing.

When the shelves get dirty, ask him to build new ones.

I wrote to Mr T:

We were going to talk about a referral but that never happened.

I'm now thinking I need someone who can give me ANSWERS and STRATEGIES, someone who can COACH me through my relationship with Madame T and perhaps even come with me to meet her.

When can I see you to talk about this?

I think it's typically easier to criticize than praise? In my case, I should probably thank him for all he does do. He has mentioned that he feels unappreciated at times. I just don't think of it. He does thank me for things often.

He grew up having to say thanks all the time or people think you don't care or love them. I grew up with people knowing I care and love them whether I say thanks or not. lol.

And that's not to say I'm not polite. I say please, thank you, may I. Etc.

However, he has criticized me before when I've said thank you for something as it wasn't "profuse" enough for him. So at the risk of starting a fight by saying thank you with the wrong body language, I'd choose not to. Or to write it down and leave a note. We decided during our last fight that if he can't look past my body language and tone of voice that I'll need to just write him letters. I know I'm socially impaired and give off the wrong "vibe" he just can't see past that.

Please note that I am only referring to my behaviour on these boards. I have never ever said a word about my interactions with H, what I say or don't say to him. Because that's irrelevant to everybody except the two of us, and it would be completely inappropriate for me to talk about it with others. Just as inappropriate as it is for me to complain of him here. So I will not do that again.

My throat has been so sore in one place for a few days. I think cold rough pizza crust scraped it, but I can't be sure. Hope it gets better soon. I'm tired of it being sore.

Almost back to bed. Hoping to get some better sleep. I've had such a light sleep so far tonight. Very unrested. Not sure why. We are going to a concert tonight so it will be a late night. I need all the sleep I can get beforehand.

He wouldn't know how.

Catonyx try some honey.
I m back on the 5:2 diet, and I'm huuuuuuunnngryyyyyyy

hi peeps im getting ready to head out in this mess to head to my retreat . im going to keep quiet and keep my head down and not cause any waves .I can do this and still be liked I know I can

I hope you'll have a good time, granite.

Yeah... Honey is gross lol.

Have fun granite.

I'm hoping I don't get a call from the school... Gave the 10 year old a bunch of extra fluid last night and he seems alright this morning, but that reflux could start up again after his feed... I should have remembered to give him fluids after being on the playground yesterday, but I didn't think it was *that* hot... Shoulda, coulda, woulda... Argh!

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Oh, and I had another dream about going back to the stbx. I hate those. I always wake up in a panic.

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Hope your boy has a better day today.

I get the shoulda, coulda, woulda... Blah. It happens.

Yikes. Hope the dreams stop. I hate bad dreams.

I agree. There are a thousand things worse than death, sometimes life is worse than death. I don't believe animals are here to torture, even if it means a better life for people.
Have you ever sat down and told him that this all feels too much for you and you really need his partnership?
Mastadon...I know I haven't been around in a year or so...but I've never heard you speak ill of your H. You may say things about your relationship and how you perceive it, but I honestly don't have a negative picture in my mind of your H. Actually, quite the opposite. You have a unique relationship, but I wouldn't judge him to be bad.

My H is da bomb. For sure. He fks up on occasion, but not half as much as I do. He's a total gem for putting up with my sorry as s. Does he do the housework perfectly? No, but he tries, and that's perfect by me. Best of all, I know that he loves me.

Not sure if I told you all about my new baby granddaughter? She's a premie, born just over a pound back on Dec 9. My d was only 27 weeks pregnant with her. Well, she came home yesterday! Just shy of 5lbs. Best of all, my
d (who is actually my step-d that I raised from age 7) named her after me. So cool.

Wikidpissah is a lovely name for a little girl!

seriously, congratulations, wikid. And thank you.

Wiki!! Congratulations!! That is wonderful news!

It's funny, my step-d (whom I consider my D) called and checked with her brother and sister to make sure neither of them wanted dibs on bearing my namesake. So cute.

I have other news too... kind of embarrassing, but..

Those of you who know me, know that I hate my reconstructed boobs and how self conscious I am about them. I won't wear snug tops, swimsuits etc. WELL...I have an appt with a plastic surgeon next month. I am finally going to get them fixed after 5 yrs. This is hard, because I consider this to be vanity, and I am so hard on myself. H and youngest D talked me into it.

Congratulations Wiki!

Congratulations, Wiki! My grand kids were preemies too! Glad she's coming home, and good luck with your surgery too.

*approves of Wiki's H and youngest D*

Hahahahahaha! Fab!
And congrats too, aww, lil babies are well cute. For about ten minutes
Yeah, cat I don't like honey either, tastes like dirt...
And, just to cover all topics, my h is pretty good. I usually cook cos I work part time but he often does too. He tidies and I clean. He does laundry, but is apt to shrink woollens....

Ugh, couch, I'm in a muddle. Feels okay, for now...I will have another flapjack (5:2 diet can go **** itself today)

I really love the police station. I'll keep repeating that until it is true. And when I go back on Wednesday to pick up my cell phone (if they haven't lost it by then) I will keep repeating that phrase. I really love the police station. I really love it. I will turn it into a mantra and chant while I meditate!! o.O

Sorry, for those who don't know, I'm in the middle of filing harrassment, trespassing, and malicious reports to Social Services charges against my latest ex.

Public Service Announcement: Don't get involved with alcoholics, you will pay for it forever. /psa

I took today off work, hubby is having cataract surgery this afternoon, we have to be there in like 3 hours. I suppose I could have worked this morning and taken only half a day off, but heck, any excuse for a 3 day weekend, right? ha.

So I did decide on Mists of Avalon from my choices of reading material. I'm 8 pages in, and already getting intrigued by the story. I don't know yet why T keeps wanting me to read it, but I suppose I will find out as the story progresses! It's really long - 876 pages and it's bigger than a regular paperback, so it's likely going to take me awhile!

Oops, hubby's calling it's time for his next set of pre-surgery eye drops. I decided to be a kind wifey and do them for him today, because I know I would be a nervous wreck if it was me having eye surgery today, and would expect the same of him. Have a good day couch kiddos!

What's a 5:2 diet? lol

I'm struggling to eat better. I have the exercise routine started, but I just can't give up the junk food.