I am so fuming right now that I feel like mount vesuvious before she exploded. I can feel the lava swirling at aloud the pit of my belly, boiling and mesmuring. I have never felt so full of rage. I can't talk to my t because she teaches at the same t college and this biatch of a tutor is her idol.
I liked her at first but she is full of ego and hostility. She is old and burnt out. She has lost her empathy and compassion and become everything I despise in a human being.
To cut a long story short she keeps forgetting to mark my assignments and when I email her about them she writes back in a seething way..like how dare I ask for what I am paying a lot of money for and am entitled too. She has forgotten about me since September on numerous occasions and I am fit to blow. I am confused and scared of my anger because I am not sure what to do with it. T would tell me to stay with this anger and let the energy rise however it needed to but this is too much.
I have been forgotten about and mistreated all of my life and she knows that, yet she still does this. It's not teaching me anything positive about being a kind and compassionate t.

[Lauliza]

I think you're anger is justified. You are entitled to feedback on your assignments and it is her job to provide you with it. I understand it's a sticky situation given the relationship so other than going over her head I don't know what to suggest. I had a professor like this and we never received any assignments back from her. Some classmates chose to bring it up during class and she got pretty defensive. A lot of psychologists are really crazy and not always very nice. I'm sorry this isn't very helpful but I can definitely empathize with you.

[phaset]

Is there someone faculty you can talk to about this? It's clearly unacceptable. This seems more like a customer service issue than a monalisasmile issue.

[Gavinandnikki]

I find it scary when the rage gets this bad. I totally hear you. Mount Vesuvius to the infinity power!!! No solutions, just wanted to let you know I hear you..

Like smoke coming out of the ears, fuming Fire rage!!

My brother in law had a similar experience when he was doing his PHD. The tutor wouldn't read chapters of his work to allow him to revise them, and as my BIL suffered with anxiety and depression it just intensified in spite of him telling the tutor how it was affecting him. He tried his supervisor to no avail.
Like your tutor, my BIL's tutor was snidey, like he was on a power trip.
He eventually got through it though, and got his PHD. If it helps there is light at the end of the tunnel.
It would be worth at least attempting to persue whatever avenues of complaint are available in your faculty.

Thanks for the responses and for hearing me

[Asiablue]

The situation is annoying and not good, but am I right in thinking that you're more uncomfortable with the power of the rage you are feeling?

It sounds like your tutor's inability to get your work marked and back to you is triggering something deeper in you. You are infering from your tutor's behaviour that she is doing it because you are easy to forget or overlook? When actually the real reason is most likely that she's just really disorganised or really overloaded with work or lazy, it probably has nothing to do with you.

The rage is coming from your history, and because that rage and unfairnes you felt as a child hasn't been fully processed, it's transferred into present day situations and why the rage might be disproportianate to the present situation.

Not sure if i'm right about that but just thought I'd throw out some ideas, hope it helps

Yes it comes from a long history of neglect and being forgotten about. It was adding sparks to the fire.