T has been away for the past 2 weeks. She's back monday, but the depression this week has been unbearable. I finally after talking it over with a friend, found the courage to email T and say I need to connect with her and just an ok will do.

Geez I mean can't I wait 3more days! I am so angry that I need to get comfort from outside sources! when will this crap end!

My head is telling me that T will find it a chore to have to hear from me during her easter break!

You did the right thing, Mouse. Maybe you will feel a bit more connected once T writes you back. And I have a feeling that we all think that our T's find it a chore when we reach out to them outside of session. However, I think your T would be proud of you that you emailed her. Trust me, I could think of a lot of stupider things to do when you are feeling disconnected (I have done a whole bunch of them this week!). Emailing your T is one of the smartest. It's okay that you needed comfort from outside-- these are healthy ways of reaching out. These are ways of healing yourself.

Well T replied saying its fine to email her and if need to talk about how I'm feeling she's around most of the wkend! well after reading that email 20 odd times LOL I just emailed back saying her reply will be enought till monday as I can now remember her again!! and then I cried!, tears of relief I think.

((((((((((((((mouse))))))))))) Sounds like she really cares even when she is away and you cant see her... you can still remember she cares.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((( mouse )))))))

I agree with pinksoil...... there are so many "stupid" things people.... me.... have done when feeling disconnected and abandoned. Reaching out to your T was healthy, and she sounds like a keeper by her response!

Thanks EV, yes I remember she cares! that I was wanting :-)

[DePressMe]

Great! Good for you for taking care of yourself and getting your needs met---you are worth your T's time. I can relate, it is hard for me to call my T or pdcoc when I am having a rough spell. I never want to bother them, but they always tell me CALL!

yeah I can't get my head round the fact that asking for help is ok! man thats a bigger. I will bring this up in mondays session I think.

[lauren_helene]

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Well T replied saying its fine to email her and if need to talk about how I'm feeling she's around most of the wkend! well after reading that email 20 odd times LOL I just emailed back saying her reply will be enought till monday as I can now remember her again!! and then I cried!, tears of relief I think.

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Wow, this is wonderful news! I like the way she acknowledged your needs like that and didn't seem hesitant at all. Good for you!

[Perna]

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yeah I can't get my head round the fact that asking for help is ok! man thats a bigger. I will bring this up in mondays session I think.

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But didn't asking this time and getting such a wonderful response help? It sounds like will be easier next time :-)

((( mouse )))

Separation is so hard!!

I understand about reading the email 20 times. That feeling of not being able to hear it enough.

I'm so glad she got in touch with you and that you feel better!

ECHOES