Needy

This could go in a few diff. spots. PtSD, abuse, not sure, but I am depressed. Trapped. No one here except my dog and my mom.

I am very very needy right now. I feel like I am 5. I guess due to the trauma thing.

Don't know how to handle my emotions.

I don't feel anything really except crying. Ranges of bad. Like I laugh maybe for a minute. But I know I can't change anything. I don't feel as if I have an outlet.

Last night the kids came by for halloween. I cried because I never see anyone here. The man that came with them said yes, no one here ever really leaves their house.

I feel anonymous and like a piece of garbage. I dont know if I posted this - abuser was arrested and put in prison last week.

1.5 years since I met him

9 mo since court

vegetable since court

i don't know what I am supposed to do with myself. I feel like I am trapped.

((((((Yack))))))

your goin through a rough time at the moment, you have to hang in there and ride out the storm, just keep a little hope that you can be happy, you can face the world again.
((((((((((((Yack))))))))))))

Hi Jackie. Frankly I don't know what to say to you to make this type of pain just go away. Did you say that you were seeing a Therapist? If you aren't in therapy...you really need to be!!

You need to take back the Joy this person took away from you. It can be done.

Thank goodness he's in prison.PM me... anytime you want to talk privately..ok?

I don't think I've ever stated it here...but I am a survivor. I know how alone you feel after a tramatic experience. I had a head injury sustained at the hands of a very mentally ill husband. It is a wonder I am still alive. I still have memory problems..and yes I still feel a little on the outside looking in at times. But therapy, in time, helps you to reasimilate back into society. It's a very gradual process.

I will be leaving soon as I have a full day with my pain management specialist and my Psych Doc.I will maybe talk with ya later.
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TGC!!

(((((((((Yack))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time. *Gives yack some kleenex*

Yack it's ok to not know what to do sometimes. And you can cry if you want to, because sometimes crying helps. You're not anonymous and you're not a piece of garbage. You're so much more than that. You're a very special person and you mean a lot to all of us at PC, even if it doesn't always feel like it. You are not garbage, you are precious and special... *Hugs* Sorry I'm not much help.