Couch 94 - Blowtorches R' Us

May 25, 2015, 06:45 AM

(((Ellahmae)))

BonnieJean · May 25, 2015, 08:56 AM

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Originally Posted by Squirrel1983

Evening couch. Well...the cleaning did not happen today. I slept in until about 1 pm. Then I started laundry and the lady I rented from asked me if I could help her with her "new" smartphone. She bought it about a year ago and put it back in the box and in a drawer and ised her old one because everytime her grandsom tried to teach her to use it, he got mad that she asked questions that he just explained.

So, she pulled it out earlier this week determined to learn to use it by reading the manual. She was lost, and asked me. I had to look in the manual for somethings as I have an iPhone and hers is an Android, so there are differences. Most I could tell what to do just by looking at icons and reading the on-screen things. Took me 2 hours to get her comfortable with it. She did ask the same things over and over, but she just wanted to be sure she understood. She is not real "old", she's only in her late 60's. But that is a little "old" to learn a new device as easily as a young kid. She can do the basics now though, so she is happy.

Got done with that and ended up watching TV with her for a few hours, trying to be social. So, cleaning just did not happen. I may try to do a little tonight since I am not tired and slept so late. I just can't stay up too late as I do have a 11-hour shift at CVS tomorrow afternoon/night (noon-11pm). Need to be awake for that.

Not doing so well psychologically/mentally. Haven't taken my oral meds in quite a while. It started out as one day waking up really late and being in a rush and not having time to take them. Then it turned into 2 days, then 3, then 4, then it got out of habit, so I wasn't taking it even when I had time. Lots of symptoms are rearing their ugly heads, and I assume the reason is the meds, though maybe not. Some say that assume does make an A S S out of u and me, so I don't want to 100% say that is the issue, though it more than likely is. Can't email T about it as the new one I am seeing does not allow email contact like my old one. I could call the after hours line, but she may not be the T on call tonight, so I am trying to decide if I want to email pdoc with what's going on or not, asking for advice on staying on top of the meds. Or I could just wait. I see T on Tuesday and pdoc on Wednesday, so I could just keep it in till then, it's not THAT far away.

Dunno, I just am trying to sort out my thoughts.

Good to see you back Squirrel!

stopdog · May 25, 2015, 08:57 AM

Ellahmae - I hope today is better.

Squirrel1983 · May 25, 2015, 09:38 AM

Morning couch. The cleaning did not get finished last night. I ended up giving up to go to sleep. Woke up not long ago and had to get a shower since I have to work a long shift at CVS today. I am off from CVS tomorrow night, so maybe I can get some more cleaning done then. As long as the kiddos at school are remotely behaved and don't drive me to the end of my rope, I should be able to.

I remembered to take my morning meds this morning. Hopefully I will remember to take the evening ones too when I get home even though it will be really late.

Have T tomorrrow morning as well, so I will be going into work late. That should help with the kiddos being annoying and behavior problems getting on my nerves. Then I get to leave a little early on Wednesday to get to pdoc for my med check and shot. Off from CVS that evening too, so I won't have to rush to work after pdoc. He has run late twice in the 3.5 years I have been a patient of his, but with my luck, if I had to go to work after he would be running late. He's very unpredictable, one visit he will be sharing about his family doing something similar to what I say I am in the process of doing, then another visit he will have the personality of a fish and be completely cold. But he's one of a very few pdocs taking new patients that is covered by my insurance, and I hate change, so I don't want to get used to someone new again.

Well, I don't want to blab too much. So, I shall end here. If I think about it, I will check in on my lunch (err... dinner) breal from my phone.

Have a good Memorial Day (to those in the US), everyone. To those not in the US, I hope you have a good regular day.

BayBrony · May 25, 2015, 10:04 AM

Really bad text exchange with my T last night . I expected I'd hear from her this morning because it was so bad but I guess not. I am so depressed. I have a few horses to treat today but otherwise I am probably getting dragged to a gathering with my partners family. All I really want is to go for a hike in the woods with my dog and find a quiet place to be alone. I'm constantly on the verge of crying. I love my T but occasionally she treats my trust kind of carelessly. Usually she apologizes and discusses it but this time she is just blowing it off. I know it's a holiday weekend ( not that I have much sympathy there since I spent over an hour last night texting / phoning clients worried about their horses) but if she says she is going to do something she ought to do it. I am distraught.

Trigger warning for SI...dont know how to do the trigger thing**********************************************

Like thinking about suicide distraught. Though admittedly my mom spent so much time telling me that I ought to kill myself because there were so many things wrong with me when I was a kid and teenager that my first thought when I get really upset is bailing on life and so far I've managed to stick around...it would be awfully tricky To pull off and still make sure my partner gets the life insurance money to pay off all her debt and set her up on a new career.......

Part of me knows it's stupid to be so upset over one person. Going to just try to concentrate on work. If we go to the family thing at least the pool will be open though her mom keeps it so warm it feels like you are swimming in pee. But no one will talk to me if I am swimmimg

Ellahmae · May 25, 2015, 10:26 AM

(((Bay)))

stopdog · May 25, 2015, 10:51 AM

BB - sorry to hear the therapist is dropping the ball. Hope it gets better today. I would always rather have a walk with my dogs than attend anyone's family gathering.

May 25, 2015, 11:37 AM

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Originally Posted by JustShakey

Art, if that were my dream I would say it was reflective of me being guilted into doing things that I know to be wrong and am very uncomfortable with for people I care about because I'm afraid of losing them...
I have a history of caring for the wrong types of people and I've gotten into some serious trouble because of it.

Thanks JS, reading that is sending me down another road entirely working on that dream... not exactly the same but a parallel road or something... it's all tangled up with me staying in therapy longer than i should have because i was afraid to say goodbye (t being in the dream) and not trying to better myself as far as my job goes (the prescription, since i work for a pharmacy) which was often a sore point in discussions with t. Hoo boy. my t was right when she said my psyche just lays it right out there in my dreams.....

StressedMess · May 25, 2015, 12:03 PM

My psyche does mind-altering drugs then gives me the hallucinations it regurgitates!

I probably block memories of dreams because of that!

Happy Monday and Memorial Day for those who recognize it. My father was a veteran of three foreign wars, so today makes me a little misty. He never ever spoke of it within my hearing, but mama told us a few things after he died. No wonder he was such a hard man.

Hugs for those who need them! Check in later.

May 25, 2015, 12:09 PM

I know why the British observe Remembrance Day on 11 November, but what is the historical significance of 25 May? Or is Memorial Day a moveable holiday that falls on the last Monday of May - that sounds vaguely familiar but I could very well misremember. (I know I could ask Google, but I'll ask the couch instead.)

stopdog · May 25, 2015, 12:18 PM

It does always fall on the last Monday. It started after the Civil War as Decoration Day for the yankees.

May 25, 2015, 12:23 PM

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Originally Posted by lolagrace

The preliminary report is that they have 5 feet of water in their house, but they can't get there to really check it out yet. That's actually not as bad as they thought it would be, but all remains to be seen. They lost 3 calves they couldn't get out.

They posted pictures from inside the house today. They had had time to remove the bottom kitchen cabinets, but not the top, so they were praying the water wouldn't reach those top cabinets. In the pictures the water line stops 3 inches below the top cabinets. A little miracle at work. So, they are in the process of tearing out the walls and insulation, treating to prevent mold, and generally bouncing back. I come from resiliant stock.

Some ask why do they stay on that land when this has happened 4 times to them (never quite this deep). My cousin's husband was orphaned in Germany after WWII and sent over to the U.S. to be raised by total strangers. He came over as a little boy who spoke nothing but German to a completely strange land. This was the land he was raised on, a beautiful piece of land along a gorgeous river. He's never lived anywhere else in the U.S., and they've lived there their entire 40 years of marriage, brought their children home from the hospital to be raised there. It is home.

And they have LOTS of family and friends to help them pick up the pieces once again, rebound, and continue on.

unaluna · May 25, 2015, 01:29 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Oh and yea Ireland

It took me a while to understand this, i kept reading it as "oh yeah and ireland" when what i think you meant was "oh and yay ireland". Or you could have been punning around and adding your vote of "yea".

Dont even get me started on uh-huh.

May 25, 2015, 01:33 PM

It must be the weekend on PC. I notice a pattern.

stopdog · May 25, 2015, 01:34 PM

I was adding my vote to Ireland. Yea rather than Nay.

stopdog · May 25, 2015, 01:37 PM

I am baking bread, listening to opera, and checking in here before this evening's small bbq.

unaluna · May 25, 2015, 01:37 PM

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Originally Posted by lolagrace

It must be the weekend on PC. I notice a pattern.

The pattern of a non-pattern?

I saw the floods on tv and thought of your family.

i know we only live where we live because of my grandfather.

unaluna · May 25, 2015, 01:41 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I was adding my vote to Ireland. Yea rather than Nay.

I told you i can read your mind! Actually i can read peoples writings. It comes from years of reading others computer programs. I learned how other people "think-code". Their style.

unaluna · May 25, 2015, 01:44 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

It does always fall on the last Monday. It started after the Civil War as Decoration Day for the yankees.

I just heard on tv that in 1971 it changed from may 30 to the last monday in may. Then it also became a national holiday.

RedSun · May 25, 2015, 02:07 PM

Cymru am byth

Been gardening in the sunshine, now going to have a glass of wine and watch a film with my little one.
Big day tomorrow in t, bit nervous

May 25, 2015, 02:10 PM

Alba gu bràth.

stopdog · May 25, 2015, 02:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Mastodon

Alba gu bràth.

Feeling particularly Robert the Bruce-ish or William Wallace-ish today?

May 25, 2015, 02:37 PM

I shall paint myself blue and grow a beard. That'll learn 'em.

(I was actually just continuing on Red75's theme.)

May 25, 2015, 02:40 PM

i'm finishing the laundry i didn't finish yesterday and baking cookies today. and playing computer games (messing around with minecraft, since my son doesn't play it much anymore, thought i'd see what the hullabaloo is about and find that i enjoy building multi-level houses and watching the creepers explode.) lol

precaryous · May 25, 2015, 02:43 PM

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Originally Posted by hankster

I told you i can read your mind! Actually i can read peoples writings. It comes from years of reading others computer programs. I learned how other people "think-code". Their style.

How cool!

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