My Weekend, My Amazing Session and The Baseball Bat

I have just returned from an extra session of therapy that I booked because I have been moving through some very difficult early childhood abuse issues and fell apart this past weekend. Today on the way to therapy I drove about 2 miles past T's street...had to turn around and drive back when I noticed I was in completely unfamiliar territory. Then I left the check I wrote him in the car, so I had to go back down in the elevator to retrieve it. So, by the time I got to his office,and into the comfy chair that I love and feel safe in, I told him I had not yet landed completely in my body since my fragmentation over the weekend. (I had spoken to him twice on Sunday.)

We spoke about how difficult the weekend had been and T explained some things to me. Then he has asked if I wanted to try something new. I said, okay. He asked me to follow him across the hall to another room -- I was very curious, needless to say.

In this room was a table covered with a cloth. It had a raised center so it looked like some sort of box was under the cloth. On the top of the table was a plastic baseball bat, or whiffle ball bat.(You know, those yellow ones they sell everywhere?) He demonstrated using the bat to hit the table with force and then asked me to do it. I jumped when he hit the table because I startle easily. Then I tried it myself. At first it felt strange. We talked a little, standing on either side of the table. Then, I realized I couldn't see T's face because he was standing in front of the window and there was a glare. This was unsettling to me, so I told him I couldn't see his face. He adjusted the blinds.

He told me that this was an exercise in claiming my power and in moving the energy from my head to my body. He has often said that I tend to intellectualize things, before I feel them. We discussed how energy is stored in the body. We talked some more about power--about how I perceive my power...and about feeling safe and where I feel safe--I told him I felt safe in the chair in his room and that I had looked forward to getting into it today! He promised we would go back in a moment. I wacked the table several more times. When I stopped, I felt strangely more in my body than I had in days. T said that was a common response to the exercise.

When we went back to the other room I was able to discuss things with him in a way I hadn't in quite a while, if ever. I was not nervous, nor did I float, or dissociate. I left feeling grounded.

On the way home, I realized that in the beginning of the exercise, I couldn't see T's face, and I was in a strange room, so I felt unsafe at first (strange room, strange man). Once I could see his face I was okay.........

It was a great session. He is a great T. I wonder what other tricks he has up his sleeve?

WOW!

I like that he tried different things with you. That's very cool indeed. It tells me that he was thinking of you over the weekend and thought of a technique to help ground you.

Simple yoga excerises are also helpful in this regard.

Sister... This sounds great. I am glad that you had a good session and glad you have found a way to feel more grounded. Hurray for you.

That is so awesome!!! LOVE IT. Seriously. I absolutely love therapists who will step outside of the box and try something different.

Izzy said:

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It tells me that he was thinking of you over the weekend

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Sigh. What an awesome thought.

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Simple yoga excerises are also helpful in this regard.

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Yes, I do yoga exercises at home often, and sometimes with my students (when I'm teaching the little 3/4 year olds--they love it!)

Thanks Izzy

Secret,

Thanks for your support. I think if I use the baseball bat method at home, my family might worry about my state of health............but feeling grounded was a good thing today, albeit a tad boring.......

Peace

Pinksoil said:

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I absolutely love therapists who will step outside of the box and try something different.

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Well, you have more experience in this dept. than I do with your professional training and all but I think I love it too. It certainly woke me up!!!!!

I hope you will be one of those therapists that you love....in fact, from your report of group session I think you already are.

Thanks Pink.

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sister said:
When we went back to the other room I was able to discuss things with him in a way I hadn't in quite a while, if ever. I was not nervous, nor did I float, or dissociate. I left feeling grounded.

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This sounds totally cool! Therapy is such an adventure.

Sunrise said:

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This sounds totally cool! Therapy is such an adventure.

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Oh yeah, I'll say!.............