The Couch 102, Buckle My Shoe!

DO IT. I'm going to look up that Melissa Etheridge song! I really like her Lucky DVD.

Granite, you just are going through a REALLY hard time right now, please don't beat yourself up for not feeling other people's care for you. It is really hard to do (impossible?) when you hate yourself so much. That doesn't mean it isn't true or even that you don't appreciate it, but when you feel so, so terrible about yourself, it can be impossible to let that care in.

I was talking a little bit to my T yesterday about how I really don't want to go to this roller derby practice tonight (my 2nd time, and its something i have wanted to try for YEARS but have been too afraid to do it), because the voice inside of me is screaming at me "YOU DON'T DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD." She said that voice is trying to destroy me one bit at a time, and I need to tell it to shut up I said it isn't that easy, and she knows it isn't, but I said I'd try. So, maybe you could try to?

Its sunday morning - better to hear the ac than "other stuff".

Its sunday morning - better to hear the ac than "other stuff".

It's in the 60s here, and my downstairs neighbors are running their a/c.

I do this, too. I can mentally compose an e-mail but then never send it. For me, I often want to communicate with people, but then am afraid of saying the wrong thing, so I end up not doing it. I told my T the other day that sometimes I'll buy cards for people, like "Thinking of You" type cards and then never send them because I'm unsure of exactly what to say or am afraid for some reason the person will have a negative reaction to it. My T said that's kind of a perfect example for how my brain works--having good thoughts and intentions, but being afraid to follow through on them.

I know that might not be the same as what you're talking about--just made me think of it. You might be referring more to a lack of motivation thing, which I also have issues with...

Maybe the put on the a/c to cover the sound of the "other stuff" they don't want their neighbours to hear.

I highly doubt it. Downstairs neighbors are an extended family (mom, two grown sons, daughter-in-law and grand baby) all living in a 2 bed apartment. Besides, they've been running it like that all week.

um...you realize your very description indicates there's been plenty of "other stuff" going on in that family for years now?

Of course, it also gives an idea why they might need the a/c on. Too many people, too little space!

I'm in a major crochet mood right now, making hats because this pretty basic one is really easy and quick, so I can make several in one day and feel very accomplished. I just finished this one for one of my work friends, photographed on the rocks in my backyard. I'm searching Ravelry right now for something a little different to work on next.

Leah, haven't seen you around in awhile (or maybe I just haven't seen your posts), you out there? Hope you're doing ok.

I saw on pbs today how to a) work beads into a crochet hat - tres cute! And b) how to do cablestitch with crochet. On that one, you work the hat from the bottom up rather than the usual top down. I might make my own ribbed headband now.

Got questions for y'all.

Is it ok to go to an interview even if you're not sure anymore if you want the job?

Is it ok to ask for 24 hours to think about whether or not you want to take the job?

Ugh! Im so confused.

Yes, I think it's fine to go with both of these considerations.

I have interviewed people in the past who have needed to think before accepting or declining, it was fine.

Thanks. It just feels kind of ridiculous to do that for a small restaurant job but I gotta start keeping my options open or I'll never get anywhere. And at my current job I might be putting myself in a position to move up if GM goes ahead with what another manager and I talked about. However, I wont find that out until later tonight.