Tears with T

I have to post this - my emotions are all over the place and I know you'll understand. Today I shared something from my childhood with my T that I have carried with me for 35 years. I have never told anyone. It was very difficult and emotional. I cried and so did she. It feels nice to know she must truely care. The thing is though, I don't feel suddenly unburdened. I'm confused and don't know what to feel. In a strange sort of way I feel mad at myself for letting somebody else in. Its just not me. My tears have been few and far between, but I think I am finally starting to feel some sadness. Thanks for listening (reading)!

Kindergirl, Well done for sharing some hard stuff, and yes as we remember and talk about our pasts we then begin to mourn it! It is very hard.

((((((((((kindergirl))))))))) I'm so happy you let someone share the load with your. Thats a step in the direction of healing.

ev

Kindergirl, that is wonderful that you let her in and shared something so painful for you.

Good job!

((((kindergirl)))) It is so hard to let ourselves feel sad or acknowledge our early tragedies. You are on the road to healing--that is why you shared that with your T. Take care.

(((((((((Kindergirl))))))

I'm glad to hear that you were able to trust you're T enough to be able to tell them something that was that personal, and that you hadn't told anyone else. But sometimes, just telling someone doesn't completely erase how we're feeling about it. Healing is a process. Keep talking about it with your T, keep writing how you are feeling ... these are all steps that together will hopefully be able to ease your anxiety about this issue.

This was a huge step forward though, you should feel good about that.

Jacq

Kindergirl,its sure not easy disclosing things that are aweful and I commend you for having the guts to do it.
I have been in a similar situation and I too felt angry at myself for disclosing,however in the end it was worth it.I never immediatly feel relief after a session,I tend to rewind it and pick out bits that really bother me.
Just try to let it go.....try to think about how T really understands you better now.
Hope this helps some