Couch 106 - the couch that must not be named

I'm sorry for your loss, MKAC.

I never know what to say. Sorry MKAC.

Thank you all so much for the moral support. I just didn't know what to do with myself yesterday. Still don't really. hearing kind thoughts yesterday helped.

(((((MKAC)))))

It's snowing. The little doesn't even want to see it, she said she just wants to sleep. Hopefully it melts soon. . .

DD I hope you are doing ok. I know how important your grandma is to you.

Thanks! It's been rough for me since she was in the hospital last weekend. I texted T to meet this week. Waiting to hear back. Dealing with reality stinks. The physical decline is starting in a big way. Coping the best I can. Atleast I'm healthy enough right now not to create a crisis for myself which 2 years ago would have been exactly what I did. It's tough but if I fall apart now I'll be a total disaster when she goes. Just trying to spend lots of time with her.

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Where is everyone? Guess everyone is busy this weekend. Hope everyone is having a good time. MKAC sorry to hear about your dog.

I think a goodly part of the Couch may be snowed under by Snowzilla or whatever it's being called.

Me, I brought work home for the weekend hoping to distract myself. Big mistake.

ooooh forgot about the snow storm hitting the east coast. Hope everyone is ok. stay safe.

Just a few errant flakes here, they melted as soon as the fell. I have my nose in a book, contemplating cleaning and painting but more probably I'll just lay here like a slug. Happy weekend couch!

Blizzard here.

yikes! stay safe.

Thank you and I am so sorry about your grandmother. I read something this morning that made me think of you. The writer was describing the end of his wife's life and how overwhelmed he was. He decided to pretend each day that his wife was already dead and that he was allowed just one more day with her. He lived every day that way so he was able to focus on how much he loved her and how grateful he was for this one more day with her. Dunno if that is helpful to you at all.

We only have a little snow. I sent my H out to buy Dragon Age for me. After reading you guys' posts about it, it sounded like something that might be absorbing and keep my mind occupied.

Just a lazy day around here. There are things that I probably could and should do, but I keep talking myself out of them. Lazy sounds good to me today.

My son who turns six this coming week is getting a new bed today.. You know, finally moving out of his converted crib Soooo... I have spent the morning cleaning his room then his sister's room in preparation of the delivery. Next.. Mopping, vacuuming, or sweeping every room in the house. Cleaning keeps my mind off the yucky bad thoughts for awhile!

Hey couch! Got home from t a little bit ago. We had a good talk. I did start by telling her I thought I needed to ask myself a question while I was sitting there - and I asked it out loud "Why can't I leave you alone between sessions?" She laughed a little (actually so did I) and we talked about it some. A good discussion resulting in me deciding I want to go back to weekly for awhile. It's like, I'm finally at the point (after 4+ years) where I am talking about whatever without stopping myself out of embarrassment. It has taken a long time to get here. I mean, I've always been able to talk to her eventually, with a ton of hemming and hawing and making her guess and handing her writing, but there had been that one last barrier to letting myself just be in the emotional intimacy of the space, and now I'm not stopping myself from saying things anymore. We talked about a couple other things too, it wasn't a deep session like sometimes they are, but one of those lighter, feel-good kind where I walk out feeling happy. Now I'm tackling my laundry....

Happy Saturday, couch!

I have never had a lighter, feel good kind where I walk out feeling lighter. The best I get is walking out not wanting to bludgeon myself for trying to get her to hear me and failing or to bludgeon her for being so amazingly thick and off base. Sometimes when I manage to skillfully maneuver and elude all her traps I feel okay.

I don't think I have ever had a "lighter" therapy session where I walk out feeling happy. Oh well, another thing to add to the bucket list!

I'm enjoying my nephew's FB posts today. He inherited his grandparent's farm and has slowly been acquiring a menagerie: a few cows, a pig, a dog, a cat, chickens, and today, a goat. He's been posting pictures of the various animals getting to know the goat today (just a baby). It's like the painting A Peaceable Kingdom. He loves his animals and takes great care of them. His dog even has his own FB page (which is where all these pictures are posted). His dog goes everywhere with him and my nephew records his adventures. Has a ton of followers. Everyone LOVES that dog: a chesapeake bay retriever -- amazing dog.

My son auditioned for Regionals today, Tenor Sax. I wish I could have been there, but he said it was a closed thing. He thinks he did pretty well, knew he made one mistake, but he thought he did pretty well overall and will find out how he did on Monday. I am so proud of him!!!

Good for him. Yes, the region process is very closed. We were able to find out results via a website later in the evening in our region but that completely depends on what each region has set up in terms of websites, results, etc.

I still need to do laundry. I bought more sheets yesterday
I have so had it with the community laundry room...

Oftentimes with those lighter sessions that I walk out of happy I find myself upset later and feeling like I missed something important. I seem to feel better when I leave hugging myself and shaking a bit.

Oh cool! He didn't mention that, so I guess we don't have it here. I'm so proud of him however he did!!