my therapist

So some of you probably read my post about how I lost my job last week. Naturally it's a total crisis for me. I called my therapist that day, but he was out of town. I left him a message that things were really bad. He called me back on Sunday to talk to me and then saw me on Monday. He went 20 minutes past the allotted time in talking to me and actually kept another client waiting! I told him I was afraid that I might not be able to see him when I get a new job (not all jobs will let me get away for an hour and a half during the day). He said that he would accommodate me and see me in the evenings if I couldn't come during the day. I felt so relieved and so supported. He is awesome. I think I'll tell him I love him next time I'm there. I am so grateful.

Sidony

Hahahaha, I'm laughing because I just PM'ed you with all these questions, and here they are, answered in this post. I'm so happy your T is working with you. He is awesome, and this must take a little bit of the stress off.

It definitely helps!

I'm going to see him again day after tomorrow (I saw him for individual yesterday). So that should help a lot. I'm trying to get through my last week of work -- cleaning out my office and all that. It's depressing as hell.

Yeah I went to group. I couldn't bring myself to clash with him about it, not when I'm so low anyway. I didn't much like it. I did tell the group about my job (procrastinated for half an hour first -- could feel T looking at me while I waited). They were sympathetic, but I really hate telling people. I know it wasn't my fault, but it still makes me feel really bad about myself.

Sidony

Losing a job is never fun. I lost so many jobs when I was young that others thought I had a real problem. Of course only I knew it was because of seedy bosses who insisted I put out or leave I always left. But I'm telling you... a new job every 2 or 3 months was NO fun. Plus there was no way I was going to broadcast the reasons.

Please, please try and see this as a chance to begin anew. I mean, no it isn't fun, and yes, it might be easier to have stayed there if you could...but you don't have that opportunity so why not think about the new beginning? Often a better situation will come along, one you never would have found had you not been disrupted in the old. I wish for you this to happen... good things to come.

Pick yourself up as best you can, even though you aren't feeling like it. You're no less a person for not having a job now. Make it your 40 hour a week job to LOOK for one. That way you can help ward off the depression that is so common with continued lack of activity.

I don't mean to minimize what you are going through, and all the "what ifs" that can be thought. I just want you to know we have all been there, know what it means, and the only way to get over it is through it. (((hugs)))

I'm so glad you have such a great T! I wouldn't be alive without mine.

Thanks Sky and pinksoil.

Sky, I'm sorry you went through such bad experiences at work. There are some awful bosses out there!

I hope that this will ultimately be the start of something better. It's so hard to imagine that right now. I told my T that roughly 90% of my self-esteem was wrapped up in having my job (since I felt like it was a good job). I'm trying to find some way to think good about myself without it. I've not even fully unemployed yet (since I'm working this last week), and I'm already afraid that I'll turn into a lazy bum or something. I feel sick at the thought of working on my resume, but I've really got to. I'm afraid of failure. I'm afraid no one will want to hire me. And yet it's illogical because I know my work record is good. I may not be the best ever, but I'm dedicated and reliable.

I found my old resume today. I plan to start updating it next week. I hope I don't get distracted by the potential of just doing nothing. It'd be so easy to lay around and watch TV or something. I'm scared I'll procrastinate.

Sidony

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I'm so glad you have such a great T. Especially at this difficult time.

Where one window closes, a door opens. (((hugs)))

Sidony, are those moments in therapy the best!

I agree with you Sky, w/out my therapist I wouldn't be here either. Postpartum and my other issues were so bad that I almost didn't go to see him at all.

I'm sorry about your job Sid. I just started a new one and let me tell you, being out of that old toxic situation is moving me forward in life much quicker.

Now I'm able to focus my therapy on further improvement of me where before I was barely inching along.

I'll bet this will be a turning point for you. I will pray that it is...