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I am new to this board.
I have ended all visits to my pdoc - therapist - and have taken myself off all medications about 7 months ago- because of cost..and lack of transportation.
My medical cost is overwhelming with many many inpatient bills - being sued by many hospitals because I cannot pay - insurance covered very little of the cost. So I had to put an end to pdoc - therapist - medications. I was ok for awhile - still ok but so many triggers are making me not so ok.
I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder - DID - BPD - anxiety - PTSD .
Just wondering if all these things will just go away one day on its own? Can one just learn to live with it and go on?

[okiedokie]

Hi free1,
Unfortunately, as you will find out without your pdoc and meds is that none of it ever just "goes away." Boy, I wish it did!

Re the hospital bills -- did you apply for charity care? Since I don't know your income, what about bankruptcy? I know that would have to be a well-thought out decision because it's impact is huge and long-lasting. But, if you're there, you're there.

As far as pdoc and T now, have you considered applying for Medicaid? Going to the free/low income mental health clinics? You might even check online at NAMI.org to see what's available in your area. Are you close to a large public hospital? I know that in WA state we have Harborview and they have a free/low income mental health clinic as one of their many services.

Are you associated with a church? Some have counselors on staff and they may even be able to help you out with paying for your medication.

I think what I'm getting at is that if you don't have support on an outpatient basis you are going to end up in and out of the hospital like a revolving door and just racking up more bills.

I wish you all the best. If you would like to talk further, feel free to PM me!
Take care,
Okie

[okiedokie]

I also wanted to say welcome to PC!

Okie

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Thanks for your reply -
I havent applied for charity - My pdoc wanted me to apply for SSI which I did 3 times and was denied.
Without transportion I really cant do much as far as appointments.
I do not see myself admitted to any hospitals anymore.
I have been on many medications - none I have had worked for me. . my body seems to be resistant to medications so I am not missing that.
I am going to close the door on treatment - and go on from here one day at a time. Its probly not as bad as it seems.
Thanks for your reply - and information you sent .

you might contact the PPA who often help people pay for their meds. there addy is www.pparx.org
or 1-888-4PPA NOW. They are a partnership for free prescription drugs. I hope that helps.

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thanks ester for the information on prescription help - however - have decided not to take anymore drugs because none of them have helped me - been on many and had no good results. my body is very resistant to meds.
decided to put it all behind me and go on with life.
my situation has no answer at this point but to move ahead away from the medical system. .should be ok.

Free1, Welcome to PC.

I'm so sorry you're having a rough time right now . Are you talking with the hospitals and letting them know your situation?

Will those things just go away on their own? I don't know.

Can one just learn to live with it and go on? I don't know that either but I suspect it depends on how one define's 'live'.

Applying for charity benefits through the hospital may take care of most of the hospital bill *and* it might provide you with connections to other sources of help or resources for getting help. Talk to everyone you can so those who like to help know you are out there.

Also, some counties provide rides to appointments for those on medical assistance, if that's an option for you.

I hope you will be okay. Keep posting and let us know how you are.

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thanks ECHO ~
the hospitals here dont really seem to have compassion when it comes to billing. i tried talking to each hospital i was put in and their was no getting around the bills. so .. they sued me. they also garnished any wages i would earn which at this point is 0 because i cant hold a job. i rely completly on my husband.. he cannot afford my medical either. we have insurance but doesnt cover but very little.
so .. just going to live my life day by day and try to make the best of it. as long as i stay in a quiet enviroment i am ok. , when i get triggered i sit and wait it out till the feelings and thoughts pass. seems to be working so far.