Facing termination

Sorry to hear this Cinnamon Stick. It is natural to be angry and hurt by this, especially after 12 years, so allow yourself the space to experience whatever feelings emerge for you.
To offer a bit of balance, I do agree with Merecat; we cannot know why she has left the job. Perhaps she was under financial pressure and had to take a full time role, and once you are offered a job, oftentimes you aren't given a lot of choice about how long you have before the starting date. It seems obvious the that she never intended to hurt you. And while you have every right to question her commitment, it seems to me that seeing clients for as long as 12 years does show commitment to you. Not many of us on this board have been lucky enough to have such consistent treatment for so long.
I hope the termination can be a positive one, not least because I think it will make the grieving process easier for you to know things ended well. Also, might it not at least be worth asking T about possible referrals? You don't have to take them, but at least the option would be open and the referrals we be selected just for you, by somebody who knows you very well.
I so sorry you are facing such a loss, and wishing you well for the road ahead.

Hope you're doing ok Cinnamon

I'm so sorry, Cinnamon. I know how much you love her, so this must be excruciatingly hard for you. I really don't know how I will cope when my time comes, and this has made me think about that. So painful to even imagine it.

I really hope you get through this okay, and that your termination is a positive one. Your therapist seems to really care about you, which will make that easier to achieve. I do feel, though, that two months is insufficient. I understand that life can be like that sometimes, but it doesn't seem fair to you when you are so emotionally invested in your relationship with her. It is abrupt, and I'm so sorry it is happening this way.

I agree with others that it is important to express everything you are feeling in your remaining sessions. Get it all out, the anger and the hurt, the disappointment, all of it. Don't keep any of it to yourself. Work through it with her, so you can leave it behind.

I really hope it goes well for you. You deserve that.

My session last week with her I was very angry and said a lot that I needed to. I did express my anger in a respecting, healthy way even though it was hard. I am not keeping anything in. I email her my thoughts and feelings as well. I am trying to make the best of the time we have because I don't want any regrets. I want this ending to be healthy and positive and I want to be able to look back on it and feel as good as I can.