will my psychiatrist hurt me if i tell him certain things i am scared cause i am like really pretty sure he has put something in my head and i am scared someone is trying to poison me and i am scared if he knows that i know about why the others are in my head that he will hurt me cause they say he will so that i dont get them what they need and then it will ruin everything but i also dont know if i should keep seeing him because if he is trying to hurt me then i shouldnt but if i dont the demons will hurt me cause they were sent by someone and that someone well if i dont go and see my psychologist and psychiatrist then they will hurt me cause they are i cant say cause they will be mad and ugh i dont know what to do everything keeps going wrong and i have to do what both sides say but it is really hard and exhausting.

[here today]

What do you think he put into your head? A thought or something like that?

[Waterbear]

Hi Eden, I read a few of your posts and haven't replied before because your situation is very different to mine and I wouldn't like to pretend I know where you are coming from or how to help you in any way. But something struck me today and I wanted to share it with you, whether it will help or not I don't know. You seem to have a very clear picture of your own mind and how things are for you, if I am wrong about this then I am sorry, just ignore me. But if this is the case then that voice that gives you the picture could just be the voice that you should listen to, if you can tap into it some way to hear it well enough past everything else. Just a thought. Wishing you the best.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by eden1515

will my psychiatrist hurt me if i tell him certain things i am scared cause i am like really pretty sure he has put something in my head and i am scared someone is trying to poison me and i am scared if he knows that i know about why the others are in my head that he will hurt me cause they say he will so that i dont get them what they need and then it will ruin everything but i also dont know if i should keep seeing him because if he is trying to hurt me then i shouldnt but if i dont the demons will hurt me cause they were sent by someone and that someone well if i dont go and see my psychologist and psychiatrist then they will hurt me cause they are i cant say cause they will be mad and ugh i dont know what to do everything keeps going wrong and i have to do what both sides say but it is really hard and exhausting.

I think you should print this and read this to your psychiatrist. I am no Dr...but have you ever been evaluated for Schizophrenia? Have you taken the Psyche Central quiz on the Schizophrenia condition? I have read a couple of your threads...and Schizophrenia is what comes to my mind....as I do know someone that has been diagnosed with it and your posts remind me very much of that person.

Originally Posted by here today

What do you think he put into your head? A thought or something like that?

i think he and the other "bad people" put something into my head like a device that lets them get into my head which is why the bad thoughts wont go away and it lets/helps them do bad stuff to me.

[QUOTE=Waterbear;5002297]Hi Eden, I read a few of your posts and haven't replied before because your situation is very different to mine and I wouldn't like to pretend I know where you are coming from or how to help you in any way. But something struck me today and I wanted to share it with you, whether it will help or not I don't know. You seem to have a very clear picture of your own mind and how things are for you, if I am wrong about this then I am sorry, just ignore me. But if this is the case then that voice that gives you the picture could just be the voice that you should listen to, if you can tap into it some way to hear it well enough past everything else. Just a thought. Wishing you the best

But to hear what?

Originally Posted by Misssy2

I think you should print this and read this to your psychiatrist. I am no Dr...but have you ever been evaluated for Schizophrenia? Have you taken the Psyche Central quiz on the Schizophrenia condition? I have read a couple of your threads...and Schizophrenia is what comes to my mind....as I do know someone that has been diagnosed with it and your posts remind me very much of that person.

i do not know what i have and have not been evaluated for i have taken the quiz i have taken many of the quizzes when i was bored.

[Demunie]

Hi eden,

I don't have any more advice. I think that noone here is gonna tell you that your pdoc wants to harm you in any way.
As soon as you have your appointment with your pdoc, try taking a few, deep breathes, and then tell him everything you have to tell him. Tell him everything you told us. It'll be fine.

Ok I guess what I am asking more is if you were in my situation (based only in what I have said I do not expect anyone to know anymore than that) what would you do?

[velcro003]

I guess it is up to you to truly decide that you can NOT live the way you are living. Eventually, something needs to give. You seem to be spiraling further and further downhill, and you will either do what the demons are telling you, and that will lead to whatever consequences it does, or you decide that you have been trying and trying and trying to appease the demons, except it doesn't seem to be working--so the only other option is to be as honest as possible with your pyschiatrist/psychologist.

I understand how fiercely you believe that they will hurt you. I think you really need to figure out if you can overcome that fear to try telling the WHOLE truth and see what comes of it. If you don't, you will still be feeling the way you are feeling now--and is that bearable?

[MobiusPsyche]

Eden, if I were in your situation, I would be terrified and I would probably have a lot of the same thoughts and feelings you report here. I would be very confused and scared.

I would think that listening to the others in my head is not working and I must try something different.

I would be tempted by several options, which you seem to be struggling with as well. I would find someone I felt I could trust...hopefully a psychiatrist or psychologist but honestly a teacher or family member or ANYONE who I felt deep in my heart wanted the best for me...and I would tell that person everything.

That's what I would do because keeping it all inside would be killing me.

I wish you all the best.

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[divine1966]

Originally Posted by eden1515

Ok I guess what I am asking more is if you were in my situation (based only in what I have said I do not expect anyone to know anymore than that) what would you do?

I would print all posts I made on PC ( if they were my posts), gave them to my pdoc and asked him what should I do. When he gives me his suggestion for treatment then I would follow it

[divine1966]

Originally Posted by eden1515

i do not know what i have and have not been evaluated for i have taken the quiz i have taken many of the quizzes when i was bored.

I thought you said when you first joined on here that you were diagnosed with OCD, GAD, depression and BPD, maybe something else. Were you formally diagnosed? Are these not valid diagnosis? I was surprised to hear BPD at young age,

Originally Posted by divine1966

I thought you said when you first joined on here that you were diagnosed with OCD, GAD, depression and BPD, maybe something else. Were you formally diagnosed? Are these not valid diagnosis? I was surprised to hear BPD at young age,

I mean I don't know if I was evaluated for anything other than what I have been diagnosed with obviously.