The Couch - CXII : The Tao of Couchies

I don't know what mdd is - but I think your upsettedness at the young adults was justified. I usually think in general it would be better to more calmly set limits and stick to them, but sometimes a good display of temper can get their attention.

You can borrow the junior cat at night too if you like. He's become an insomniac and believes that my feet are a deadly enemy and must be attacked regularly throughout the night.

Perfect! I miss having a cat - husband is deathly allergic so mine had to go live with my parents :/

Ugh been extroverting again this morning at work. I wonder will i ever be able to construct a persona that feels natural doing that? It wears me out so....

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And sending hugs to those who want them.

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I have an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow. If anyone wants to hop in my pocket for that, it's at 8 am. I feel the appointment is going to be really emotional and rough, as I am going to try to bring up some repressed emotions. Sounds like fun, right? I'm not to sure as to how this will go. I don't really want to cry, but if I talk about these things, I know I will. But I know it's necessary. And I hope it goes all right tomorrow.

I am very introverted with a very extroverted job (preschool teacher to 2 year olds), and my T always tells me that it is no surprise that I am so tired on weekends and nights. It's hard work to be extroverted 8 hours a day for an introvert.

I'll be in your pocket, DF. It's going to be 4pm where I currently am so I'll be awake and alert and you will be in my thoughts. I hope your psychologist is helpful.

Also with you, DF!

i had the strangest session tuesday . out of the blue my T got up and started typing on her computer and kept doing it . it made me so uncomfortable. she kept doing it as she was trying to talk to me . i just said i wanted to leave. and got up to go she asked me to sit down and stay. i did because i didnt want to storm out but i felt like she had other things more important to deal with . she has never done this before . i finely told her i was having a problem with her doing this and i would rather her let me leave instead of sitting there as she did this.she explained that she was just typing what i was saying . i dont understand why she didnt explain what she was going to do before she did it . it seemed like she wanted to make me uncomfortable and upset but i dont understand why . im counfused and am finding it hard to trust her . it was like she wanted to punish me for asking for an extra session . ill never ask again .she doesnt need to worry about me getting to close to her and doing horrible things to keep me away either . i know my place .

Hopping in too, DF!

And granite I'm sorry that happened. I think she certainly should have told you what she was doing. But maybe she didn't want to interrupt you? Big safe hugs to you, friend.

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Rather than shut down and refuse to trust her, why not ask her to explain to you why she was doing that? It sounds like she may have tried but you weren't able to really hear her because you were upset. It's okay to ask again. It's okay to tell her you wondered if she was trying to upset you. Communicate these thoughts to her and be willing to dialogue about what was going on both outwardly and inwardly. I HIGHLY doubt it was being done to punish you; that would be something the mother would do -- not your therapist. But tell her that is how it felt or what you wondered; it's great fodder for discussion. It may have "felt" like a horrible thing she was doing, but perhaps if you talk about it, you might understand why she was doing it. She has never done "horrible things" to you before -- that would be something the mother would do, not your therapist -- so this a perfect opportunity to try to really talk to her about what she was doing and how you were feeling.

My pdoc types on his laptop during our whole session. Its a little weird for me, kinda distancing. Makes me feel like im on stage. No one has ever done this before. Of course i started t practically before computers were invented.

I was trying to figure how to do that good post thing on my phone....

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Did that help? I always just spell out my emoticons. I dont know about tapatalk, but there is a list of them on the regular screen if you click on the word smilies.

Old school! I spell them out too.

Mirabile dictu, this morning I got through a therapy session without getting annoyed or irritated. Not even once.

I hear the skiing is good in hell these days.

Yes! I never made the connection before. I'll try one now since I'm on tapatalk

:embarrassed:

Did it work?

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Or i can use ones on my phone
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But they always look tiny on my laptop not using tapatalk.

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can't type that one out - it has to be : o

No - cuz nobody knows how to spell embarrassed! Youre the exception that proves the rule! A RailRoad and a SteamShip crashed into each other and boy were they embaRRaSSed!

I thought the etymology was more like someone got caught without their underg------- on and boy did they have a bare-***.

Speaking of embarrassment, I just found out that I have cavities.

Have spent the week in a haze of shame over it.....to the point that I wonder if I should talk about it in therapy except that I'm too embarrassed to let my T know that I have them.

So, have been doing the mature thing and obsessively googling things like "at what age did you first have cavities?".

Argh.

?? That would be "embareassed" is that the british spelling?? :