The Couch - CXII : The Tao of Couchies

T suggested that I text him whenever I have the urge to do something that we have been talking about a lot in session. Which means, I should text him now. I just don't want to. And I am trying to figure out why I don't want to.

Your old way is the sure way, even if it ultimately fails. Reaching out to a new way is scary. What if it doesnt help? That would be my reasoning.

I agree that it would be scary. But maybe you should text your t. It might help you feel better in the end, even if it is scary and uncertain now.

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Are you concerned with being disappointed in his response or lack of response? Or scared he will over-react?

Everyone is at work or visiting friends. I'm alone in my house with my youngest. My dream (to live with only my youngest child) seems bleak and cold. It's a little lonely and much too quiet. Why can't I make up my mind?!

I might have misspoke. For borderline personality disorder, DBT is usually at least six months. But it is also used for depression and other disorders as well; for those, 6-10 sessions is probably standard.

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Okay. So just about right. He's sending me for something else. Thank you!!

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Thanks for all the input.. I think I didn't want to text
B/c he is trying to get me to stop doing something that I am not ready to give up. So, it seems pointless. I am eating his time by texting him and telling him.. Because his response is not going to stop me.

I would tell him that. Ts like to know 'where' we are. Well, mine does anyway.

So do I. Maybe it would help me stop freaking out about everything if I did. Hugs if you want 'em.

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H just got a delivery up on mt lemmon. I love it up there so he asked if i wanted to come with. I was in the car before he finished asking! We talked the insurance thing over some more and are looking into putting son on his own policy w another company if its cheaper. Or he said we could add him anyway to ours if not because i told him i cannot DO the not putting him on. I hope he meant it. We are going to try to have a pleasant drive up the hill that he gets paid $100 for doing...

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Google has the weirdest Mothers Day page yet. It has a doormat with a pair of adult shoes and a pair of kids shoes. Except i have never seen anyone in this country wear those kinds of shoes. I like how Google tries to make things appropriate to the country but this feels like they didn't even try. Its the same on the New Zealand page as well.
CE have you ever seen any woman wearing those shoes?

Thanks thats exactly what happened last night. I totally over-reacted to being alone after I took my D back to her dad. It was like I was small again and my mother had left me alone again in a big dark house.

I have been trying really hard to be more present with my daughters but at the moment things happening in T are dominant and I can't seem to take enough control and stick them at the back for long. They still pop up. For years I used to have a worry hour where I spent an hour worrying about things so they didn't rule my life. Why doesn't this work with therapy?

A lot of posts on PC are about nonresponsive Ts. That can be discouraging.

They are old-fashioned, but I guess that's the point.

My psychologist is really good about answering my emails if I have a question, so when he doesn't answer right away, like today, I think there is usually a reason, like helping me in some way, or that he is busy at the moment.

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When ever t tells me to text I know he will respond b/c when he tells me to text him he is really concerned about something that we have talked about. I did text, him and told him I am trying this and he thanked me and then reminded me what we talked about in session yesterday concerning the topic.

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The view from the top of Mt. Lemmon earlier today:

These groupings of trees just spoke to my soul today up on Mt. Lemmon. I so love it up there.

Today Marshall Dillon told a bad guy his rifle would be waiting for him "up at that notch in the mountain". I see the notch now!.

Lots of notches up there, pilgrim.

(Oh wait, that's John Wayne, huh. )

That was one hell of a play Crawford and Panik just made!! Go Giants!!

Does anybody know anything about sex addiction?

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Those times when you get aggravated at someone and can't do anything about it. My sister. Hey. I bought this, and you pay for it. I didn't ask. But I'll pay you extra every paycheck! Wow! As if that makes it better. She just makes me so MAD for some reason!

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