Couch 114 - Take a Pew

My son had an awards ceremony at school tonight and he wanted to watch a baseball game on tv so he pouted and then said "I think I feel flu-y" so he could have an excuse to stay home and watch the game. You are right. He absolutely did not get the memo. Every time I think I'm making headway in being able to talk with him like two grownups, he pulls a stunt like this. Oh well. He's the one missing out. I went!!

There is much I would like to say about this part of your post, as it relates to me.

There is really no other person who understands what my agenda/journey is in this. I truthfully didn't either, when it exploded in my mind. I only knew I wanted to feel a peace and freedom that I've never known.

Dwelling in the past has no invitation to me. There are mini slideshows that come up with triggers. I deal with them. They hurt a numb part of me. I watch them. I see them.

For me to move forward, my decision is to hold no grudge. That's a tall order and maybe because of the numbness I can say that, or maybe because I go back in my mind and see myself there and I also see someone else there. Someone who came to take my pain, fear and all my regrets. I can't see the event from my small eyes without turning around and seeing who was standing there with me.

God gave man free will. He is there with you in the pain, but in his sovereignty, free will is what it is. He makes beauty of ashes. I know that to be true.

Forgive me if I've shared too much of my belief with you. It is who I am. ❤️

I did not know he was pouting because he did not want to go to the ceremony. I thought it was something else.

I burned myself making bread earlier in the week and it itches like the dickens. I somehow wacked or scratched it open in my sleep last night and tonight I am trying to wrap it up tonight so it doesn't keep getting split open. It is a couple of inches long and on my inner forearm.

Lavender would be a good thing with some coconut oil if you have it. With a bandaid.

Hope it feels better!!

You are the one who will have the memory and moment in time with your son!! That is a prize bigger than the grief of the other! I speak from my own experience.

Been there. Understand.

You are a good parent. He will remember it.

I met you here on the couch - this is a great start for me
You gave me some extra courage to turn up to my next session tomorrow, thank you 😊

High five!

Thank you for sharing. In this unknown, difficult journey for me, knowing beliefs of others who are in a similar journey is a big help. I have my own beliefs but different people think in different ways, and they come up with different but equally helpful, which I could borrow and adapt to guide me through. It's sort of like people in difficult times have stronger faiths, as in the religion sense.

It is more natural for me to not hold grudge against anyone for the things in the past, but that may be part of my avoidance. I cannot tell yet but I'll find out...

Thanks a lot for your replies. I wish you all the best with your journey ahead 😊

It is so late!! 1:30 here. Yes. Am. I got 3 hours of sleep last night and I feel like I've slipped off in to some other place. . I know I need to go to sleep but having a hard time settling myself into it. Too many things to make sure all is ok.

Conscience. I hope your time goes well for you tomorrow! I'll be thinking of you.

Good night! Hopefully I'll go to sleep and wake up when I need to. Major stressor!!

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Sleep well, Trailrunner. Good luck tomorrow, conscience.

I'm starting to learn that I don't have to be alone, first. But it's only the beginning! 😅

It is! Good luck for your session

I am here, I guess this is a bonus.

I wish I knew where the good mood from this morning went. Starting to get that dreadful agitation.

(((BunYip)))

Finally it is a suitable time to retire to bed.
Thanks for all the hugs.
Hugs to all who need/want them.

Hey BY and Breadfish. Sorry to hear you are feeling more down, bunyip - what might help de-agitate you? Watching some gruesome killings in Midsomer, perhaps? (Whenever I'm out walking in the English countryside I half-expect to find a dead body lying around...)

I woke up and it's like 5am here. Now I don't know what to do. Maybe I should watch the sunrise?

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Ah, sorry, I lingered too long over that last post. Sleep well, BY.

Morning, ilikecats.

Hey crocus! I woke up early so of course I jumped on the couch. Enjoy your day-home-from-the-office. How I wish we had that option! It's early enough that I could slip out for my walk, but no possible way am I going out alone in the dark. Yes I am 3 years old at heart. . .

Not only did he not get the memo about being an adult, he didn't get the memo that a baseball season is 162 games long, and we have 120 games left before the playoffs!

Had a family session this afternoon. Really difficult - toeing the line between being honest and not hurting my parents.
Mum says: And I don't want our relationship to deteriorate!
I think: What relationship? Can it even deteriorate any further?

My troll is back. Their actions are pathetic and not worth worrying about, but the malevolence and contempt gets to me.

Sorry about your troll Crocus! What are they doing?

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