The Couch 115: Corduroy Pillows Are Making Headlines!

Yes! Thanks. Exactly!

It's like when something upsets you but you can't put it in words yet...

I think there is a difference between what a client may need to say and what the therapist needs to know about detail. The detail, I think for those guys, is not the necessary part even where saying it may be useful for the client.

I can't believe you doubted me.

Carry Nation had an axe years before Lizzy Borden.

Over forty?! I might as well be dead!

To be honest, I had to Google "Carry Nation". At first I assumed it was the radical wing of the gun lobby.

I am like you, @@. I feel my mind doesn't want to contain it all.
Sometimes when I am talking about it with T, I dissociate. My mind did not want to remember that bit.

I'm glad she says she understands the feelings, emotions and horribleness. But why don't I believe her?

It's never good for a T to say she "doesn't need to know". It's her job to listen to whatever you want to tell her.

Not just that, for me. I automatically accepted other's views of events and of me. Those views were skewed to say the least. I spent a lot of time in t these past few years in wonderment that my parents would treat me x way, for example. Like my dad bought me a broken typewriter for a graduation present. When I tried to take it back to the shop, the salesman told me, final sale - that's what your dad thinks of you. Fifty years later I'm still trying to grasp the message. Like seriously, me?? Wtf?

Yes!!! This^

this made my day! When my mother used to come into the beauty shop I worked at while I was living with her, if mum was mad at me, the shop owner's Pekingese would bark at her.

I'll join you. Although I feel mentally like a wayward teen, this decrepit shell tells the true tale.

The problem with corduroy is that cat and dog hair stick to it. So maybe sticking with pillows is a good idea

I have been shaking my computer mouse and wondering why my ipad won't turn on. Anyone else want to join me in the twilight zone?

I've been a total b**ch to my H all day, and I'm not sure why. He was working from home, plus a guy was here to clean out our air ducts, so that was kind of annoying. I work from home, so it was like constant distractions, and I have lots of trouble focusing as it is...I said that I felt like I was being irritating, and he said, "Because you are being irritating." Which, gee, thanks. I said I figured he'd want to hang out after DD went to bed, but wasn't feeling that social, and he said he wouldn't really want to hang out with me the way I am right now anyway... I mean, I have a cold and am not feeling well, but that's no excuse. PMS was last week. Maybe it's just stress?

Or maybe it's about some test results I got a few days ago that included something that's a marker for chronic Lyme disease (won't get to talk to doc about it till next week), and when I mentioned that to him, he said that it wasn't a real illness. I said that our friend had it, and he was like, "She had something, but it wasn't chronic Lyme." Thankfully, I saw my T the next day, and she says it is a legitimate illness and that she has a couple clients who have it. Granted, I'm not positive that's what's going on, but it would explain quite a few of my symptoms, including my total lack of energy and constant fatigue, plus some of the mental health stuff (well, some of that has been there since I was a kid, but more the severity of it now). But if he doesn't think it's something real...then, yeah, I don't know... (For the record, it's low levels of CD57/NK1 cells, which from what I've read online, is pretty distinctly a Lyme marker, though H said it could be mold, too, though I haven't found much online about that connection).

Anyway, thinking my crankiness toward him could be related to that maybe...hoping we can talk about it some in marriage counseling Tuesday...

I'd love to go! You don't want to match your freckles Let them show through. Foundation is to even out skin tone, especially if you like your freckles. There is a way to hide them if you would like. I love matching foundation and usually all of my friends kidnap me to go match them because the people in Sephora can never get it right.

Just on the outside edge right on the top of the bottom lashes.

If you don't share there aren't cooties, and don't use an unsharpened pencil because if you're being quick the wood will scratch your eye and trust me that hurts! Only from the outside edge in no more than 2/3 of the way. Stay out of the tear duct area and you're good.

Seriously, couch get together slumber party? I'm in.

Yes! It's gorgeous! In fact I've played with it all night and have done so many fun bright looks. I just had to give my eyelids a break lol and have washed my face and brushes for the night.

Nothing wrong with being over 40! I'll be there soon

LT - I am really curious as to how a disease that can kill, even if it does so rarely, and is treated with antibiotics, is not "a real illness."

He believes, I guess, acute Lyme disease is real, like you get bit by a tick, have the rash, then immediately have symptoms. But I don't think he believes in the chronic form, where maybe it's been in my body for 10 years or more, causing symptoms, and showing up as negative on the standard blood test (Western blot maybe?) because Lyme bacteria are really good at hiding. The chronic form might need months or more of antibiotics to treat it (that's what our friend went through, and she's finally doing better...except for the part with her husband leaving her...).

It was an integrative physician who ordered the test--she's an MD, but also has training in more holistic/alternative methods. I initially took our daughter there a few months ago to seek help with both chronic constipation and her being on the autism spectrum (she just got food intolerance results back, and they came up really high on eggs and dairy). And when I showed him the website, he was saying he hoped they didn't tell me to "use crystals" and stuff like that. So I get the sense he doesn't buy into holistic/alternative medicine as much... (note: no crystals were mentioned!)

I would love to wear makeup, apparently i am very attractive with it, but it results in great shame. Even foundation with a little blush makes me feel the same way.

(((by)))

Maybe he'd like to come to the doctor with you and argue it out with him?

Yeah, maybe we should do that (though it's a her--the doctor, that is!) Actually, I'd kinda like to see him argue it out with my T--she'd put him in his place.

Could i grab a few pocket riders for my session on monday? I stuffed up the texting thing by being excessive and i know it sounds like an excuse but i couldn't stop myself from doing it.

I'm in. Always.

I'll come along.