Couch 121: An Intimate Chat.

I think pop tarts have an artificial taste that is unpleasant.

ooh thank you sd!! i even have some blueberries right now. i'm going to try this.

I use baking soda in the boiling water - not lye

my recipe doesn't....

eta just saw sd's response to this. i don't actually put anything in the boiling water.

Granite I'm so sorry your session was so hard. Do you think it was good for t to make you keep talking? Has she ever done this before? It sounds like s new tactic.

Also I want to see your cards or crafting if you are up for sharing!!!

Ok I'm on a crafty kick. Anyone ever make soap ? Can you get the same complicated recipes by using melt and pour base?? I have a thing about lye. I know I'd accidentally poison myself and family would think it was suicide but it would be me being my clumsy self.

My son just called from school, he tested out of the class with an A!! I am SO proud of him!! Now he will have his Tues and Thurs evenings free, so he said he's going to pick up more hours at work. And he'll be taking a higher-level class instead now on Friday evenings.

Just realised that writing in the other thread that delseting my account and setting up a new one might be the way to go.

I don't know how to let you guys know its me. I you have an idea pm please. Before this account is deleted.

Couldn't you pm when you get back?

BY - your writing style is unique, as are most posters'. We'll know and if not we can ask privately.

Always the voice of reason.

In news just in! My eldest is staying the weekend and we are tie dying t shirts. Then she flies out for her Vietnam study Tour. Having travel anxiety already.

Someone knocked on my door at 5:45am. Thought it was grandson forgetting his key. No one was there. Scared eejeezus out of me. Grandson came hour later as normal. Warned him not to talk to anyone at the bus stop he doesn't know. Know I wasn't dreaming because dog barked, too.

Knocking just happened again...lightly. Grandson has key.

Only thing I can think of is an animal below my front deck, itching maybe.?
#spooked Come on daylight!

Pm sent, Bunyip.....

Note: if/when I call exterminator and they say they won't at least check under the house for sign of animals, cats, rabbits, possums...I am so tired and weepy..I guarantee u I will lose my ****! Just lock me away in a non buggy psych ward..cuz someone will have to send for the white coat brigade!

It will do no good to treat the house a third time if animals are partying under the house.

I don't know how I'm going to pay for any of it.
I'm alone. I live alone. I need help.

****. I have signs of dissociaton, if the below article is credible. I'm both scared as ****, but also strangely reassured because I've struggled to name some of my experiences.
From - http://www.mind.org.uk/…/types-of-…/dissociative-disorders/…
* not being able to remember information about yourself or about things that happened in your life
* feeling as though the world around you is unreal
* feeling as if you are just observing your emotions
* feeling disconnected from parts of your body or your emotions
feeling as if you are floating away
* speaking in a different voice or voices

Couchies, jedi hugs please...

well great i just royally pissed off my h this morning. our newer car (that will still have payments on for a good while) the brakes started squealing and h wants to have son change them. i do not oppose this entirely, he did his own in his truck, but i asked one simple question - that they make sure the computer system isn't involved in the brakes in any way (because it's tied into everything else it seems like) - and he starts talking down to me like i'm a one year old. well i got mad and said f--- you. why can't anyone around here respect my thoughts about things? I mean so what if I'm wrong. But what if I'm RIGHT, and when he pulls off the thing a computer wire pops off and then who knows how much it would cost to fix, plus we'd be minus a car until it could get towed in and fixed?!

Well yes I suppose I need to learn to have a little tact when standing up for myself but hell's bells, I'm tired of his attitude when I ask what I think is a perfectly logical question.

And things were going so well between us, too. I guess I've screwed things up again just trying to stick up for myself. I hate me right now.

Hugs. Hey, ever considered - if your husband would quit being disrespectful of you, it would also be easier for you to stand up for yourself without having to be "aggressive"? I don't know what you said of course, but just because he reacts huffily to you standing up for yourself, it doesn't mean you were tactless. Some people who disrespect us just don't like any form of assertiveness, no matter how tactfully it is put across.

Art - in my experience it usually takes two people to screw something up in a relationship. Not just one.

I've just had my brakes replaced outside the dealership system and they had to get a computer from another office as it does include an impact on the software. Maybe not a wire, but the days of tinkering with a spanner and a wrench are long gone.

Prec - it is possible they will need to treat your yard and they may tell you (depending upon the exterminator) that you need a different type for the animal. I have had bug exterminators and squirrel/mouse exterminators (because I have the world's laziest menagerie) - they were not the same - I had to call two different companies.

I always hate going to T after I have a 'derealized' day. All sorts of weird things get texted and sent and I'm always scared she's going to be like ummm... walk back out. :/

Thank you for the suggestion. It might be what I need to do.

I want someone to look in the crawl space to see if there are animals there. My brother said he might stop by if he had time this weekend (then he jets back to Florida.) I have two friends who say they will try to look Sunday.

I'm thankful. I just want to know what to do. If there are animals under there, maybe management would help trap them...(I pay lot rent) ...or animal control?
I'm limited on money. = ((

I'm so tired and ...not in a good place mentally.