[dreamrunner]

For over a year now Ive been seeing a psychologist,it has been helpful and to be frank if I didnt have the support from him Id probably would be 6 feet under.Now Ive been dx'd as bp2 and seem to be stabilized most of the time on litium.I just dont know if I should continue with therapy.
The reasons are:
1-its a two hr drive one way to see T

2-Im afraid because Ive taken a day a month,off from work to see T,Im paranoid that work will ask why I need so much time off.I dont want people to know about bp.

-3-Therapy is usually the same thing. I just talk and talk......it always leads to the same advice the stuff that I just cant seem to follow.

4-Im sick of being doctored,I see pdoc which is an hour away,and my gp basically once a month.

5- I see T only once a month for an hr and a half......sometimes its not enough....a lot can go on in a month
6-I havent created any kind of bond with T,he is good and nice but no connection

It is my pdocs plan for me to continue with therapy,theres no doubt I could use T ,its just all these above factors that is making it so hard.

I just dont know what to do.

[Cheri]

Are there any therapists closer to you? Imo, it would be easier to form a bond with someone you see on a more frequent basis, and maybe you'd feel you were getting more out of therapy then.

[dreamrunner]

I could,small town though.....the t i see is covered by my health insurance.

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For over a year now Ive been seeing a psychologist,it has been helpful and to be frank if I didnt have the support from him Id probably would be 6 feet under.

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I havent created any kind of bond with T,he is good and nice but no connection

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How do you feel about your first statement when you say that there is no connection?

I understand that it is difficult-- mostly because of that long commute... and only having one session per month-- perhaps that's what makes it seems as though there isn't a connection. It would be very hard to carry through, you know? But maybe you do have a connection there... just kinda blurred because of all the other factors. If you feel as though you still need a T, but really can't go on with this one, perhaps you can find one closer.

[Venny2900]

Hello

If you know hes going to give you the same advice then quit it. And try to follow that advice on your own.... If you need to hear it every once in a while than dont quit

i look back on my first T last fall and i know i'd have been hospitalized or dead if i hadn't had him, but i can completely understand how you could feel that way but feel like there wasn't/isn't a connection. i was attached to the guy like someone to a life preserver, but he never reciprocated... meaning he didn't do what even good therapists do in terms of making a bond with me.. quite the opposite really. But i couldn't understand that at the time, all i saw was the person i could cling to temporarily... and it kept me alive.

why not do both? Take a break from therapy and see how that feels and how you do.

[dreamrunner]

Dont get me wrong....my T is a good Tand he has helped me a lot......I guess if distance wasnt a factor I wouldnt consider quiting.I want to try to discuss other options with him.I know my pdoc is quite firm about me continuing therapy.
Its too bad I couldnt see pdoc once a month as he is an hour closer.
I dont want to quit but I do.....Im so confused.