Couch 124 - Discussions & more!

Yikes that leaves a little too much open to interpretation (in my mind anyway) (then again I read too much)

Its a caring heart - he might put a younger animal with a sitter, but hes staying home with his best pal

it was the "he'll be gone soon" part that made me wonder.

Thats the part that made me

I called my sister earlier, left a message. I don't know if she'll call me back today or not. She's always so busy and it's hard to get ahold of her. I haven't talked to her since I saw her last year at my brother's house for Thanksgiving (unless you count texting yesterday). I really should try harder to talk to her more often....

i wish i could put into words how i am feeling but i cant im so overwelmed .17 days left to obsess

That's like ultimate risk aversion (covering all your bases) / lack of imagination?

Have a pet = I'm a sensitive, caring soul.

Said pet is aging = I'm more than your usual sensitive, caring soul.

Like traveling = But wait, I'm not a boring goody-two-shoes sensitive, caring soul

Pet will be gone soon = I want you to know that I will not be burdening you with my sensitive, caring soul issues

....so then there won't be any problem = Just in case you didn't put two and two together from the previous clause, I assure you that there won't be any problem on that front. Pick me. Pick me. Pick me.

every day it is more of the same . fear ,guilt ,anger ...

Finally talked with my aunt from Texas who is staying with us and my mom. Let them know things are really rough right now and that my mind has been in a pretty dark place. I see T Tuesday. Mom agreed I should go. Might try to go stay with a friend on the weekends. We'll see.

Unless "pet" is code for "wife" and "aging" is code for "not that into her anymore."

Or "planning to get rid of her in an, ah, permanent way, if you look promising."

Huh. Suddenly I'm interested again.

Actually, unless he's lying he is over 50 and never been married, which is a whole 'nother ball game.

Sadly that is where my mind went. But like I said, maybe I just read too much.

T1 texted me a reminder of my appointment tomorrow. He sometimes does that when we are meeting at a different time than usual, but tomorrow is usual time, usual place (he has two offices). I have been gone for a week and hanging on to the fact that I will see him tomorrow. I texted back-as if I would forget! He sent a smiley face.
Don't get me wrong, I like getting texts from him. But it seems a little weird for him to remind me of my usual appointment.

In other news... the bathroom fix is coming along slowly but surely... the mold has been remediated and we tore down the tiles from the other two walls, found no more mold thankfully, now we just have to get the cement board or whatever it's called and put that up, we're going to do that ourselves but then will hire someone to do the tile. We found some very affordable tile at a local place that we're going to use. Hoping to have it all done by Thanksgiving.

Is it possible to get depressed about being better? Or maybe depressed knowing that I don't need t as much anymore. I officially cut back sessions to every other week.. I initiated, t thinks it is a good idea. But today I am feeling all weepy.

Definitely possible to feel sad and weepy over cutting back with t. I hated it.

Throw in the occasional Pokemon to keep the examinees on their toes.

That's one way to look at it. Another is that he is honest and in touch with reality.

"I've made choices and I'm following through but I still have options."

Well on dateline / 48 hours last night there WAS a defense lawyer claiming his client was just a crummy date, not an attempted murderer, after he tried to drown his gf in front of several witnesses! i kinda think that lawyer didnt try too hard.

Misread of the day: Couch 124 -- Delusions and more!

(not aimed at anyone anywhere--just not wearing my glasses.)

Some people don't have the same sense of humour as I do. Apparently you need a certificate of waiver (COW) to fly a drone in New York City. Well i couldn't leave flying COW's out there untouched. The guy attacked my comments as being stupid, I don't know why he didn't catch onto the joke after the dung tax comment. I was saying you need a permit for flying cows and he just was trying to tell me the difference between permits and certificate of waiver. I'll keep my jokes for the couch.

Ok part 2 of therapy homework done, talked to my sister a little bit ago. Might as well go for part 3 and do the Active Imagination, won't feel like doing it after work so no time like the present! I am being such a good little therapy client this weekend. Ha haha ha. I'd normally have a week but I'm seeing her again Wednesday since we've both got other things planned for next Saturday. She doesn't usually give 4 part homework, thank goodness. I guess I shouldn't have told her yesterday that I am very good at doing what I am told when she asked why I'm successful at my current job.... ha

Well, I can't even guess at words without my glasses. I just see black squiggly lines.

ok. noise cancelling headphones on, time to go dive into my Active Imagination... I'm dragging my feet a little because it's not going to be an easy one, since the dream featured my son and it is the dream-son that I need to have a conversation with... it'll be hard to get into it and not focus on my actual son, but instead the idea that 'he' is representing my still-developing animus... ok no more stalling here I go...

Should really stop reading threads that point out what I desperately want from my T but will never get.