Who invented vacations for Ts?

All I can say is....

are you %#@&#! serious?

It's only Monday. And I seriously cannot believe how much this hurts. This must be a joke.

I apologize to everyone for my constant whining. I think I will be doing it until September 7th or at least September 4th when I can call him.

I feel sort of stupid leaving him a message to call me back on the day he gets back.

"Hi. You've been back for exactly three seconds. Now call me."

God, I make myself want to hide under furniture.... for a really, really long time. I feel absolutely pathetic and immature.

I was sort of okay today because I was so busy at my internship. Then I came home and tried to take a nap because I have barely been sleeping at night. I fell asleep for a short while and when I woke up I felt like someone had kicked me in the stomach and said, "You're never going to see your T again."

I would have had an an appointment tomorrow. Instead I'll be driving to school at that time.

I feel more like a two year old now than when I was two.

NEW RULE... for all therapists out there.. NO VACATIONS... it is so declared on this day..

Also, no sick time, no personal time, no jury duty, no jail time,

ahhhh.. let's see... you must live in your office - no going home..

well you can go potty.. that's ok... and ordering food in.. that's ok..

did I miss anything??

I am on count down.... my appointent FINALLY.. 2:00PM -
we are into hours mind you.. not days...

grrrrrrrrrrrr.. I want it to be minutes.. not hours..

rut roh... you have NO idea how raunchy the T's office might get with all that not to mention how stale the T might get listening to all those troubles hour after hour without a break.

((((((((((((pinksoil)))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry. It sucks.

totally agree with you, Pink... they have all their rules so i think its only fair that we get to set just one....

NO T VACATIONS.... EVER!!!!

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rut roh... you have NO idea how raunchy the T's office might get with all that not to mention how stale the T might get listening to all those troubles hour after hour without a break.

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Can we add a rule that they are allowed to take showers once a day?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... most definetly.. yes..

in fact.... required.. one shower a day..

and.... air freshers for the office..

and maybe an air cleaner......... or two....

most definetly.. maid service... afterall.. we clients want a clean couch to sit on..

((Pinksoil))

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I feel sort of stupid leaving him a message to call me back on the day he gets back.

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Oh yeah, I am trying to figure that one out big time.

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Then I came home and tried to take a nap

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I've been napping for the past three days. It helps to shut out the pain.

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"You're never going to see your T again."

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I feel the same way. At this point i feel like T is an illusion. He realy doesn't exist anymore for me.

Hang in. Keep journaling. Immerse yourself in your work. I agree this sucks.

How about a 5 minute phone call? Can I even get that?

Pink, you are not the only one whining these days...me too!

I feel for you, Pinksoil! I wish I could help
You CAN do this!

I'm sorry pinksoil...

I'm hurting because it'll be a full week and two days (instead of just one week) before I see T again (he isn't leaving -- I'm going away to visit family) and it's already killing me....

Sidony

Thanks for responding, everyone.

I feel so.... I don't know.... right now.

Busy at my internship, then straight to school. Class from 6-9, then stuck in traffic because of construction, didn't get home until 10:15, husband said hello, goodnight, straight to bed. Now what?

I cannot quiet my head. It just feels like noise. I want it to quiet down.

I really want to just go to bed right now but my head is buzzing with stuff. I don't know what to do.

Without going into the whole story, I spent a great deal of time at school tonight with someone who triggers a very emotional reaction in me because of something that happened in the past. Even though the time spent and the drive home (dropped him off) was okay, I am 10X more emotionally %#@&#! up than before. I wish I could talk to T about it.

I am so embarrassed about this... but I fell asleep holding the book he gave me. No, I didn't just happen to be reading it in bed and then fell asleep.... I purposely held it the way you would hold a stuffed animal, and went to sleep with it. The inner child had taken over so much... that reading the book and listening to the music serves the adult needs... but because the child is so much the prominent one through all of this... I just wished instead of CDs and a book he could have given me a stuffed animal. So I found myself wanting to hold the book close to me rather than read it. So I did. How %#@&#! embarrassing. How childish, of course.

I wished you didn't feel embarassed. It seems perfectly understandable wanting to hug the book and fall asleep. Your connection with your therapist is so intimate with intense longing feelings all mixed together, it makes seperations, such as vacations, difficult. Hang in there. I found for me, the missing part got easier as the week(s) went on.

Another thing I find to happen after hers or mine vacation. The first session back is terrible. You have all these pent up feelings, feelings that have had no place to express themselves and then you get there and YIKES. Where did my T go? She seems like she is still on vacation! It always takes us awhile to get back on the same page.

Izzy thank you so much for validating that. I get so ashamed of the child feelings sometimes, I really do....

(((((pinksoil)))))

bloody unions, i expect.