My last session didn't go well, it was my fault, afterwards I regreted holding it in. I've been in horrible shape since I see her every week tho it feels the days are SOOOOOOOO Long!!! I see her this coming Wednesday,..I'm scared...I don't know how to explain some things to her I need too, I do write letters out of session she reads them, she told me to keep doing that, even in my letters I feel I'm doing "too" much, and am a bother. If it where up to me I'd e-mail her daily but I know she can't reply every time so I save myself the worry and pain.

Right now with my teenage life smothering me, and my disorders..I'm pretty overwhelmed...((T)) I hope Wednesday coms fast..and I make up for this weeks session.........

Dustin

Dustin, try to find something that came out of that session. I know how it feels when you think you blew the session... and you want to "make up" for it next time. But remember, there is nothing wasted in therapy. Even if you spent the entire time holding stuff in, there is still a lot to be said about that and a lot to be learned from. Take care.

[Perna]

I wrote my T several times a week for many years and I was in my 40's and 50's! Don't worry about whether you are doing too much just try to get it all out there so you can "see" and work with the material, however you can. If your T says something is okay with her, then try not to worry about that and just go with it. It took me 4-5 years in therapy before I could cut out the writing to her and just talk to her in my sessions each week.

Do you have a journal/write to yourself? That helped me a whole lot too.