Couch 134 - The Untriquadium Couch

Hugs! I hope your work day goes well.

My father isn't all bad either, recently he cleaned up and greased my roller chair, which I found was thoughtful and nice of him.

I got lectured because apparently roller chairs pick up the hair I shed and there was a LOT of that and icky gunk. So I deserved the lecture because I should know I need to care for furniture. I didn't know and yet didn't ask because I was afraid of a lecture if I asked.

But then honestly, if there wasn't SOME good side, it would be so much easier to leave. People are complex ((hug))

I'm in a bit of a panic and I don't know what to do. I think T1's wife might be lecturing in the dept where I study.

Hi, ty for the welcome! She's a new T for me, I've seen her a handful of times. I don't know if she has the experience in the areas I need help in?

Also, she's the fourth T I've tried...since a badly handled counter transference that my long-term, prior T had and didn't know how to deal with it. He terminated, apologized with my pdoc present and T asked me back and I said yes.

But I could not regain trust...I didn't trust him. I did try. I think, in retrospect, he was manipulating me for awhile yet he cared about my well-being. To be terminated all of a sudden - I don't know if I want to put myself out there again. And I have no ins coverage, but that's sort of an excuse.

I'd seen him for four years! The termination was like a death for me. Everyone is human. He flaked out, big time. I just haven't had a regular T since and I'm scared to trust again.

My current T: I have rescheduled a lot of my T appointments...I always go within the same week and I've never not shown up. Yet, I dread going. I have trouble leaving the house, too. Thanks for listening.

Wow, send me a bill. Hug me? Just kidding, lol

Maybe you can ask her if she's in supervision and yeah there's nothing wrong in asking if she has experience in the areas you need help in.

Dang, what happened with your prior T sounds so confusing for you plus so very painful. It's easy to see how it'd cause mistrust about other Ts! Abandonment is so, so painful for many of us.

Sounds like you've some agoraphobia, that's really tough to deal with. After your experience with your ex T, trust with new therapists is definitely going to take lots of steady consistent proof of them being actually there for you ((hugs))

You'll find lots of supportive people here, so definitely I hope you feel welcome

What's your worst fear regarding this? How likely is it that the situation will happen? What do you think are your options if that scenario happens?

Asking myself those questions sometimes helps me handle what I call my "Generalised Anxiety Disorder freak outs". Hugs!

I went to find one of my lecturer's contact details on the website and her name was on the list of staff members as a "part time lecturer". She has a fairly common name, so there's a chance it isn't her, but I know she lectures within the county on this subject so it's very plausible.
Just seeing her name practically made me hyperventilate, so the thought of actually bumping into her is very scary.

When I'm at work I am fine. I'm distracted and talking with people. Sometimes I wish I could just stay at work all the time

I just went in a store and the guy was like are you wearing anything green today? I said uhh what?

Apparently it's st Patrick's day

At least he didn't try to pinch me

Hugs if you want some <3 Here's hoping it's not her

Thanks for the support, I appreciate it.

I thought he asked me if I want anything green. Like do I want some weed. I was so confused

I've formulated a plan to get off these drugs
I hope I can stick with it

I don't have any support IRL because only my T knows, and the friend I'm getting the drugs through. And obviously my T is hell bent on his theory "sometimes you have to touch a hot stove to learn to not do it again"

Actual quote -__-

*supportive dance for jDNA*

Pdoc ****ed up my prescription for 4 days in a row. I'm pissed right now. Is there anything the woman can do right? I don't have enough for over thr weekend. This will be fun.

Lets make that a sand dance. It will scare her straight!

Wilson, Keppel And Betty - From 'london Clubs And Cabarets - Trocadero Restaurant' - British Pathé

Some pharmacies will give u a few pills to hold u over

https://mobile.nytimes.com/2017/03/1...a-lawsuit.html

Hopefully this will settle THIS matter once and for all!

(((Lolagrace)))

More complicated here... they would if I filled the prescriptions with them normally. They won't do it for me because pdoc usually gives out the pills herself.
I feel like just quitting pdoc and therapy altogether. I know I'm overreacting, but I can't do anything against it.

((Argo))

Heck, I didn't want to do EMDR with a clinician with 20 years' experience and published in the field (No. 2), once she announced I'd be a complex case. So...no way with your therapist.

What I did pick up from No. 2 is that the level of training matters (you want level 2 at least?), and if he is certified. And the worst EMDR tends to be done by people not trained by Shapiro or her immediate students.

Don't know if that helps. But I think your sense of smell may be very acute.

Hello Couch. Hope everyone's okay?

I did manage to see my sister today. Well done me! Now I have exciting plans for my Friday night:



I'm still feeling swirly-brained over my session on Wednesday. I think I'll try to articulate it on my post in the sub-forum, if I can get the words to make sense.

There's some stuff I'm a bit scared to mention, in case anyone criticises my T for what he said... oh dear. It's like... I'm annoyed with him for some of the things he said, but no-one else is allowed to be... 'cause I love him, don't you dare say anything bad about him! This doesn't seem very healthy to me. Crap. I really need to talk about it, though.

Oh, and here's a cushion for this couch

That's one gorgeous jigsaw puzzle.

Yeah, it's lovely! It's a really good quality one too. Paid £3 for it in a charity shop but it would've been expensive new I think. Just gotta hope all the pieces are there... always a risk!

Thank you for this, ATAT. I don't always trust my own nose, so it's helpful to have someone else confirm that there's something fishy in the state of Denmark.

Well, trust T1 to turn "yay all my assignments are done" into "omg omg omg". Why??