[18yearsdead]

man I am sooo freaked out. Therapist told me he's leaving at end of month after he's helped me so much. He has worked with my family doc and got me help with lamictal and topamax and i was doing alot better and still am with of course ups and downs. I am right now having a real bad relapse. I havent drank in over a year til today. My husband has started a new job locked in a room with a young pretty girl. He doesnt have to lock the door but he does and he has already started to lie about it, I have caught him in 3 lies about her already. We have been together 12 years and 4 kids. We have been in marriage counceling for a while becaus of trust issues, I have started cutting again and have been crying for 2 days straight. I just had 3 shots of vodka and hate to say it but i feel better self medicating. obviosly the other stuff isnt working. I went by therapist this morning before but he wont be there til wednesday then i went to liquor store. It enabled me to put a smile on my face for my family instead of tears. Any advice is welcomed! Thanks in advance.
Hurting,
Scottie in California

[Peanuts]

I'm sorry your Therapst is leaving town - it obviously hurts you very much. Can you leave him a message and let him know that you are hurting ?? Will he be able to refer you to another therapst ??

Self medicating is not a good idea for the long run - please take care. Call your current therapst and leave a message. You don't deserve to hurt like this.

Hang in there.

[sunrise]

Hi 18, I'm sorry you are struggling right now. So hard to learn your T is moving away. Is this therapist the one you and your husband go to for marriage counseling? Based on what you wrote about the trust issues, I hope you can continue marriage counseling, even if it means starting over with a new therapist. Sounds like you guys have some issues to work out that aren't going to go away without some assistance. Individual therapy is also important for your own support. I hope your therapist who is leaving can provide some referrals.

Alcohol is a depressant; it really won't help you feel better. Do you have a buddy you can call for support when you are tempted to drink? I hope you can make today the first day of your next period of sobriety. Good luck and hang in there!