Couch 141: The Inversional Hexachordal Combinatorial Couch

I have been trying to type a comment to this (in regards to my t) for awhile but I just can't get my thoughts in order. I'm going to instead focus on the full disclosure part and not take you too seriously. Much easier that way.

the dog i am pet sitting for the night just arrived.
sweet girl but i feel sad for her, she is sitting at the door crying, since her dad walked out.

I didn't have your therapist in mind, art. Just my own very screwed-up ones.

Art -- it's okay to have conflicting feelings. And, a good T can and should work with it.

As much as current T annoys the crap outta me, I am glad that she acknowledged that her behavior really got my goat (although yes, the intensity of my response was a bit much).

Was her response perfect? Hell, no. Did I leave with a solid sense that she could deal with all of my emotions? Good gawd, no.

But, I did leave with a sense that although neither of our responses were optimal, there was "enough" between us that we could work it out somehow.

(Akin to ATAT's disclosure -- I'm rather drunk and it doesn't help that there's a brewery with a rather convivial atmosphere right across my apt).

At 4:00 my mini-break will be over and I will do my work

At 4:00 my mini-break will be over and I will do my work

Yes. Because last night when we said that we daydreamed about Matisse and had a beer and rearranged the bedroom furniture. 4:00.

Oh I know! Sorry! It just made me think about some stuff with my t that's all.

It's hard for me to have conflicting feelings. I want to know how I feel, one way or the other lol. She is a good t and she does work with it when I bring strong feelings either way and when I'm angry at her. Last time I shared my anger at her (and my fear that she would kick me out because of it) she said that we would work through whatever happened there. And that she has a thick skin and she can take it. I just sometimes don't believe her.

Most of this is all in my mind I am sure. I'm really not even mad anymore that I can't go next week because of the change in my day. It's a 3 day weekend for me right now (off Monday), and I'm only working half a day on Thursday then going out of town for 4 nights with h, so I'm choosing to be more excited about that!! So what if I can't see her next week. This is work that I need to do MYSELF anyway, with h and son, up until we leave on Thursday. SHE can't do it for me. So I'm good.

So I had a lovely dream about J last night (the woman I had a summer-long relationship with many years ago when I worked at the Grand Canyon). In the dream I had gone back to work there again, and she was there, I go see her and sit next to her at a party, ask if she remembers the last time we were there, of course she does. she looks the same in my eyes though of course we are both older now. It feels surreal to sit next to her again. I am so happy. I tell her I will never leave her again.

I woke up feeling SO happy.

Yeah, but in vino veritas, right? Or, if it's a brewery, in zytho or in fermento.

The ancient Persians used to deliberate on policies while drunk, and if when they were sober again their drunken decisions still seemed good, that is the policy they adopted.

in vino veritas - yeah - i had a good-sized glass before going to bed last night, and then the dream... hmm....

I am in awe of the ancient Pesians' general ability to focus on matters of policy.

Weighty matters (all thanks to my company) that I've pondered on since imbibing --
1. The ideal weight for greyhounds (including the difference between males vs. females)

2. The dangers and rigors of Cross-fit workouts

3. The prospects for a satirical gossip mag titled The.......Weekly although produced every.....maybe(?).........month.

4. The ability (and capability) of American textile firms to compete with Chinese ones.

5. Whether or not beer that tastes exactly like fruit juice (raisin + almond + date juice, peach juice, blueberry juice, strawberry juice etc) should be marketed as well........breakfast juice.

Would be 100% down for breakfast juice

Herodotus.

Wow, AY, you are a real Renaissance woman.

Me with my barely-achieved Bachelor's degree (and emotional intelligence of a 15 year old, if that) is sitting here in awe of how smart y'all are. Thank you for not putting me in a corner with a dunce cap on my head.

Yes, CE, Herodotus, 1.133.3-4. I did not think a citation was required on a internet forum devoted to psychotherapy. Forgive me, everyone.

I don't have anything to add to this, but quoting for truth. You all are incredibly intelligent. I feel very unintelligent here at times.

Just finished my assignment for lesson 4 in my online class and posted it. We had to write a short outline of Act 1 with our Hook, Backstory, and Trigger. I got 100% on the 5 question quiz again. Now just waiting for feedback from the instructor.

Eta: feedback from instructor was just posted. He's a man of few words when you do it right: "Excellent Act 1 structure. Nice work."

I loathe my family. Passionately.

I have never met people more self-absorbed.

I don't think CE was criticizing you - I think he was just saying he recognized it or knew where it was from.

Wasn't there a PETA campaign for awhile that pointed out the beer was more nutritious than milk?

The (older) kids and I all piled into my room and watched Deadpool, which was hilarious. There was judicious use of the mute button every time the youngest came to check in. She's now insisting we watch a movie of her choosing, but my wandering attention won't allow it. We postponed until later tonight.

Oh, and in celebration of a 3 day weekend, I cleaned a bit today with plans for more of the same tomorrow. And to top it all off, I'm going to steal the Mac back and attempt Ikea's kitchen design tool.

How will I contain this excitement?

Ikea has a kitchen design tool? *_* (uncomfortably close and intense staring)

oh mayn oh mayn..oh man

the hECK!

Whoa....I hadn't seen that ad -- I don't really get the controversy.

From a pure marketing perspective, it would be so much easier to sell beer for health rather than milk.