Couch 144: The contact-miked cactus couch

There is something to be said about the squeaky wheel. It needs to be oiled. I could imagine my T saying something similar. I can't have my needs met by others if I don't express what my needs are. That why he's genuinely happy when I've told him about recent experiences with setting boundaries.

Sorry if I also missed the point. It's early and I'm sore from my workout yesterday.

Welcome to the early morning club, Ellahmae! I'm on the east coast, and my alarm goes off at 5am.

QM and Demunie, y'all are right of course. Our needs aren't always heard or respected. But if we don't ever express them, we'll have know way of knowing who will listen and who won't. Just because my parents didn't doesn't mean that H won't, or my coworkers won't.

I'm still hormone cranky, but otherwise okay.

I'm on the west (unfortunately), and mine went off at 0330

Eww. I hope you're able to go back to bed once he's been taken to the airport

Oh my God, I hate Gestalt chair work so much. T knows that I do, because I piss and moan every time he asks if he can bring out the Evil Chair. Yet he persists because I typically have some decent insight when we do the work.

Also good morning couch!

Hi couch. I ended up going to dinner for father's day yesterday. I offered my dad lunch, we agreed, then I got a call from another CVS other than my store needing someone because they had a call out, so I went to work there, then dinner. My step-mom had to tag along. I guess she "is his wife," but why couldn't she let us have father's day without her?!? Oh well.

Today was my grandma's 81st birthday. My mom and I treated her to a late lunch/early dinner at Carrabba's. My mom had a gift card that would cover her food and some of my grandma's, so we used that and I paid the rest (mine and the rest of my grandma's). We went to the Carrabba's near my CVS since I had to work 4-8, they met me there and I went straight to work from there.

In other news, when I got home from dinner with dad last night, the lady I rent from asked when I was going to pay my June rent. WTF?!? I already paid it. I tell her this and she swears I haven't and to double check my bank account to make sure it's not still in there. Ummm..... She wanted me to pay the entire amount (again) because she never received it according to her. I got her to agree to half of it instead. I put it as we both take a hit that way. I am paying over what I owe and you are not getting what you normally get (even though I know I paid already). I hate cash payments for this reason. I also said that from now on I either wanted a receipt after I paid her or wanted to pay her with a check, so it has to clear my bank and I'll have confirmation of payment. She chose the check option. Thank goodness, I do not want this to happen again. Grrrr.......

Teacher finally posted grades for the first week of assignments this morning. I have a total of 12.5 out of 13 points so far. I'll take it. I would rather have 13 out of 13, but I guess I still have an A and that is all that matters.

I need to finish up discussion posts for this week's material (week ends on Monday for school and starts on Tuesday). I have 5 more hours before it closes out.

I was supposed to be off from my CVS on Saturday. I get to work today though and pharm manager says, "Sooo....Squirrel...what hours are you currently working Saturday and where?" I said I am off, he told me wrong answer. I looked perplexed at him and he says that corporate is requiring us to redo our last waiting bin scan because we were off from where we should have been, so I need to be there to prep and scan it. I asked if he wanted me there all day because that would be a lot of extra hours to his budget for the week. He goes, "You mean you weren't scheduled at all?" Ummmm....nope. "Could you do a split?" What do you mean by that? "Come in 7-9 to prep the bin, go home take a nap and then come back 4-6 to scan the bins?" I need the hours, so I agreed. I will just have double the gas as normal used that day driving there, home, there home. But, there isn't enough to do around there to fill up from 9-4 during the day, so going back home is the best option really. *shrug* It really isn't that far.

I just realized that I still need to take my evening meds. It's not too late to, so I guess I should go do that now.

So when things start to go bad for me.. I have this insatiable need to read up on every mental illness that I have been dx with... and I think it makes me feel better, but I am not sure sometimes that it is a healthy thing to do. Anybody else ever feel that need??

Mm, that's how I feel when my T gets up to start writing on his stupid board. It's generally useful, I just hate it.

Like how I used to hate having my hair brushed when I was little.

Weird that that's the analogy that came to mind?!

Anyway, my experience with the empty chair experiment is that it can be extremely powerful, if you can absorb yourself in it fully without feeling too self-conscious. Is it because it's so powerful that you dislike it, or is it because of the self-consciousness?

Heading to my orientations to learn about the Walton fam