Couch 144: The contact-miked cactus couch

I wish I weren't so paranoid about posting pictures here. I'm not sure I like the haircut I just got. I want someone to tell me I'm blowing this out of proportion and that I look fine. But H is at work and most of my friends are traveling for summer.

PM me if you want, Daisy - though I dunno if anyone should trust my opinion on such things!

I'm sure it looks great, anyway. I always feel weird about new haircuts at first and then I settle into them. Same with shoes...

My T made an analogy between new shoes and therapy once! Something about thinking differently feeling weird, but it could be a good kind of wield like new shoes...

Sounds like a good analogy!

A tip for any significant others out there.. in the midst of a fight about money, it's not a good idea to say to your already suicidal partner in a very disgusted tone. What the hell are you doing with your life- oh and go find yourself a career.

That was super motivating for me

I suck at life.. I really really do.

That's horrible, healed. Please try not to believe your partner's cruel words. You do not suck at life - actually, you are very strong and capable.

So sorry your partner said that... I'd be devastated. You're not disgusting though- you're doing the best you can with your life. The whole fact that you're still hanging in there although it's extremely hard is proof enough of that.

I don't think you suck at life - your partner sucks for making such a statement.

I think maybe sometimes the people closest to us know how to upset us if they're angry, because they know what we will feel sensitive about and so they know just which button to press. Doesn't mean that it's true, just that they know it will be upsetting.
I'm sorry - I hope you feel better soon.

After six months of work with R, and having out of session contact for all that time...you'd think I'd be able to dodge that feeling of guilt after emailing, right? Nope. I don't know why I still feel guilty for reaching out, even though she has said it is fine.

Pm me if you want

You don't suck at life! Your partner in that moment sucked at being supportive and understanding. I hope that changes in the future

I have honestly had the best nights sleep I have had in I don't remember when. I wish I was not so sensitive to meds and could try a wider range. I also wish I didn't wait so long to do something about it too.

Luco pm away

The old guy next door who feeds the birds everyday has gone away for a while so they are trying every house in the area, I presently have around 10 to 15 cockatoos squawking and dancing in my yard and the little doves look confused

We are having bow-ties with chicken and broccoli alfredo and garlic knots. The youngest just said I didn't give her enough broccoli. I'm blessed to have kids who like vegetables, but they make up for it with their complete inability to clean up after themselves!

That looks delicious!

Pics!

Mama Mia, let me go....


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Nt he only way I can pics is to open my back doors and go down the steps and then they fly away. I did try for the couch.
Are you going to eat my birds?

Yes, this exactly, Healed. Your partner is kicking you while you're down. You're a a very capable person going through a difficult time. Please don't believe what your partner said, even though I know it's difficult if you're feeling bad about yourself already.

(((healed)))

My day...

1. Found myself with a sledgehammer ready to tear apart my house to find a sound that only lives in my head.
2. Had a literal emotional fall out of my chair crying uncontrollably in the middle of the floor at said meeting.
3. Wound up in Ts parking lot where I slept with the car off for three hours, I was sweating when I came to.
4. Session. That was fun.... Not. Talked about something I shouldn't have.
5. Barely made it home had to pull over was sick and dizzy and lightheaded.
6. It is sister night tonight. Every Wednesday, my sister forgot. That hurts. It's not a big deal but I'm already super sensitive and worthless that this didn't help any.
7. Baseball game delayed.

I'm not whining I just needed a place to put all of this. Feel free to turn my cushion over.

I think he has you confused with his brother - he has some unresolved feelings that he is taking out on you. Which means in general he isnt "seeing" you, which is probably another big reason you would feel like crap. I mighta been hitting below his belt at this point, kudos for you if you didnt

Hugs, Ellah...sounds like a really rough day.