The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

Argh! Why didn't I clean earlier...now the fireworks have me on edge. Resident dog is freaky too. He keeps rotating rooms trying to hide from the booms, poor puppy. It's a little early for my evening meds, but then again I failed to take my morning meds, so maybe I should take the evening ones a little early. Doing so may just mean fallin asleep before finishing cleaning.

I very rarely dream about T anymore but last night i dreamed i was going to session but not at his building, I pulled into the car park which was dark and his car was ther but it had been trashed and as I pulled up the door was patly open and T was lying on the floor in a pair of shorts it kind of ends there. It was all very dark and frightening.

the internet at the ex's is slow my recorded lectures arent buffering properly and the normal download button isnt anywhere to be seen.

Indeed.

I also doubt he'd take it for anything other than a real breakthrough and significant progress.

I just got back from rehearsal (BOOM!) ... to a bunch of butt-hats setting off fireworks, of course.

I didn't play this concert last year but from the people who did, apparently the whole fireworks barge exploded in the harbor the moment they finished the overture.

No thanks

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

The twins sure do like putting jimmies on their cookies. (Jimmies are sprinkles, for non-Northeasterners.) Sometimes I couldn't tell whether a cookie was more cookie or jimmie.

Ok, brains. My brain cannot wrap itself around this sentence in a way that is positive for me... It came up in session and I have been rolling it around in my brain for the past week and still cannot make sense out of it.

"my contribution to others is far greater than my liability"

Any comments would be appreciated.... It's driving me crazy.

H took me out for Mexican food and margaritas Tonite for my bday. The restaurant is closed tomorrow so we went Tonite. I drank one too many but surprisingly I am not an emotional mess. More evidence I really AM growing up!!!!

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The tiny fur child gave me a scare. I could not find her. I even set off the alram looking for her. She was under the bed in the far corner shaking. Stupid fireworks. At least I know where she is now. Thankfully her brother is immune to fireworks as he's a trained service pup.

I am annoyed and want to pick a ffight with T via text.

I also want to kick myself in the head

It means, "I do much more good than harm."

Huh? Hope you're ok

Bcm: anything we can do to help? How did your T annoy you?

I love potato salad. My mom passed down a wonderful recipe for potato salad.
Mmm. Haven't made it for a year or two. Maybe I'll try again before the summer is over.

The only thing I can think of is that my T now resembles my biological father, I used to goad my bio father, who i only saw 2-3 times a year at most, until he hit me in the head and/or belted me. I think i am looking for a metaphorical smack in the head from my T. It just sounds weird when i write it out.

Ah right, I read that, sorry. It doesn't sound weird to me... I'd probably freak out. Especially because your relationship with you bio father changed... I mean, your emotions could mean that your relationship with T will change now too? Just my thoughts, sorry. Have you told your T yet?

Sounds like something to talk about.

No I haven't I only see him fortnightly and i usuallly for get to bring theses things up. We already have over due stuff we need to talk about next session.

Grr... my stupid ankle has started to hurt again even if I'm not putting weight on it. But then, why should it feel fine again after only 6 weeks? >.<

My T has a cancellation tomorrow how ami going to look at him? It is hard enough on an ordinary day

((((BCM))))

Happy 4th of July couchies!

Morning couch. I am in the parking lot of CVS. Almost time to go in. Had a strange night. Will post more later when I have more time. Happy 4th to those in America.

Hope you have a good day Squirrel.