T said I don't have to quit

T thinks some part of me wants to quit therapy but that SHE is not pushing me out. She is, however, still suggesting every two weeks but I told her I can't handle that yet. I still wonder if that is a sneaky way of tapering down sessions or if I could see her every 2 weeks indefinitely. She didn't comment when I wondered out loud why I have to quit at all. I wonder what she really thinks! At least I know I don't have to think about quitting for a while.

I think that is good because I think worrying about it only adds to the struggles. Like I said in my vision of the future, I'm seeing my T monthly. That is a long cry from my 2x week now.. with significant issues if that is not met.

Maybe the switch to every other week is just a way to find out where is that place of support verse dependency. She'll be there to support an independent rainbow... maybe?

My T has spaced me out to 4 weeks now. It's so hard! I told my T today to not push my sessions out to 5 weeks anytime soon. She said she won't. She said that when we we're seeing each other once a week and even every other week, I was able to process quicker. But the more we space out, the longer it will take for me to process. Phew!

I know it's hard to think about spacing out sessions. Is there anyway you'd be willing to try it? Like maybe have an appointment scheduled but the goal is to cancel it if you feel up to it that week? Or maybe try going a week and a half?

If you feel like you need weekly sessions because you are still working through things that require this kind of processing, i would insist on continuing your current schedule. However, if you feel like you have made progress and maybe aspects of your therapy feel stalled,
congratulations! You may be ready to gradually start weaning off therapy. Only do what you feel ready for, and definitely talk more with your T about this. Can you experiment with a therapy break during a week when you are really busy?

I see my T every two weeks, but if I'm going through something difficult, I can ask for and usually get an extra session.

I'm glad you feel reassured, but I am pretty sure she never was pushing you to quit in the first place

Thanks. Yes, I'm sure my T will support me but the times I've tried every other week have been disasters!

I tried it in the past when T no longer accepted my insurance and my H insisted I do it. It was painful for me.

Well, the week after next I have to cancel, and 2 weeks after that, T is on vacation, so it will be like every other week. I'll see how it goes.

Thanks. It's not that I'm going through something difficult; I just like being with my T and talking about my stuff.

You're right. She did bring it up first, though. She said "down the road, what would it be like if you didn't see me?" About a month or two ago, I brought up the money issue, and said maybe I should see her less often. So I actually brought it up first, LOL. So, it seems like we each raised the question but I decided I'm not ready for any changes now.