[FindPeace]

I know I don't interact much here but I sure need to know someone is listening...My T is on vacation for a week and I'm not handling it good at all...I am dissociating bad and all I do is cry...What is wrong with me??...FP

[sunrise]

I'm listening, FindPeace. You are missing your T. It's hard. Posting here can help. So can things like going for a walk, reading a favorite book, or writing in your journal. What would help you? Take care, and may the days before your next session past swiftly.

[FindPeace]

Hi Sunrise...I went to the movies to see a comedy, did fine at first and than broke down crying...I've been trying to distract myself by working on files but one quiet moment and I fall apart...what is scaring me the most is the dissociating...this hurts to much...FP

[MissCharlotte]

Oh (((Findpeace)))

I had the worst time when my T was on vacation. I will listen to you, and help you through this week.

You are dissociating because T is your anchor and your grounding.
It's too painful to face stuff without him. I think Sunny is right about journaling. Just write down whatever you would say to him. Write him a letter! Also, you can try getting some really nice video and watching it to distract you. I bought Anne of Green Gables, the scenery is awesome and there's not a shred of violence in it so no triggers.

Keep posting, we are here.

[FindPeace]

Thanks Sister....My T is the only person IRL that is safe and I feel like a lost child when she is gone....I do have another movie I could watch...Why does transference have to be so dang painful!......FP

[MissCharlotte]

Okay, no problem. Sorry I called your T a he!! It's force of habit.



I think the pain of the transference is because we are relishing the attention that should have been there when we were young children.

Awww %#@&#!

[FindPeace]

NP....Sister.....My T is all I have...and I don't know how to cope without her....I hate being this dependent on her...why can't I just pull up my bootstraps and say ok, shes only gone for a week, you'll survive...but this is pure hell

[ECHOES]

((( FindPeace )))

Nothing at all is wrong with you. You're missing T. Missing T is a way of staying connected to T. Thinking about T keeps you connected. Still it's so hard! Missing and crying are the way you feel and that's okay.

Oh, so many of us here have posted about missing our T's whether it was because T was on vacation, ill, or even because an appointment had to be rescheduled.

We care about our T's very much. We miss them and we feel sad when we feel separated.

If you can, think of seeing T again, being in session again when the vacation is over. In your mind, bring the two of you closer together by thinking of you being together again.

[FindPeace]

Echoes...TY...I will try to focus on being with her...and being happy when I'm with her....FP

[RACEKA]

I know exactly how you feel. I feel so lost without my T. He's right below God in my life. I'm so upset since my last session. He asked me if I would want to see another therapist in their group about some issues he is not experienced with. I told him no. He said it is my choice, but he was going to note it for his protection and he was ok with it, but there may come a time that it will be unethical for him to continue when he feels he can't help.

I've been crying and dissociating ever since Saturday. I don't know whether to call him or just wait until next session. I won't see him for 2 weeks because I'm going out of town this weekend for some R & R. I'm trying to let it go for now.

I'm so dependent on him. I don't want any other T but him. I don't even know if I would want to live without him. I feel your pain.

Your not alone.

[FindPeace]

Raceka, I'm sorry your facing this...I've been keeping myself busy and have been doing better as long as I don't stop and think...I miss her so much and I won't see her till Tuesday...she told me if I ever wanted a hug I could have one...I would love to ask for it Tuesday but to chicken...Haha...FP