Couch 158: The Newberry Couch!

I feel the same way about coconut butter. Double wedding?

I knew there was a reason i was staying away from it. At least a regular cashew, you burn up half a calorie chewing it. Cashew cream would go straight from my tongue to my santa belly. Sorry, i dont mean to be negative! I am still cursing the t who who told me about Nutella.

I used to stir half a tsp of coconut butter into my oatmeal "for the health benefits" - now i just take a tiny bite of it and actually taste it - and swoon, omg.

Oh hey! I saw Santa Paws today! This couple had a pretty tiny little black dog in a Santa hooded sweater downtown today, he was walking all slippy slidey perky, i go, "Santa Paws!" and they smiled, even the dog smiled.

Lol.....

A therapist told you about Nutella and now you’re hooked? I would sue, baby, sue.

I recommend Nature Valley coconut butter biscuits (the biscuits are also coconut). Better than whatever weird flavor Oreo is pushing now.

When youre right, youre right.

When he saw i didnt recognize the word, he should have changed the subject. He brought it up to begin with. Im sure SD would be thrilled to bring this case against a t. In the Peoples Court!

I like Judge Milian. I loathe Judge Judy.

I love the words loath / loathe.

Generally I am loath or loth to loathe. But Judge Judy deserves it. As does her ilk of elk.

One more session before armageddon (therapist's 2 week vacation encompassing a major holiday and a forced week off from work). I'm not sure how to do this.

I've read that online too. Apparently so the sales person will BS you less...

Hugs if you want, Lost.

Session in an hour...can I request pocket riders?

Yes of course

I'm in.

I have my last session before he has his Christmas break today in exactly 1 hour.

Today officially marks one year in therapy.

I'm so very tired.

I seemed to have missed the pocket riding but I hope your session went well Lost. Have a good session Lemoncake.

The session felt slightly fragmented as my mind was jumping like a bird from branch to branch - but we left on a good note with joking about where he was going and I didn't cry during at all which is a big thing for me.

I'm not bound by my schedule just after the break so asked if I could have an extra session so 3 in the week that he comes back. It sounds excessive but I'm not expecting myself to have a happy time back at home and my first exam will just be around the corner so extra loopy-ness. xD

Hugs...you do have a backup T though, right? I know, not the same at all, but at least someone.

I imagine being off work will be difficult, too--less to occupy your mind with. Maybe try to plan things for yourself, like, "Tuesday I'm going to a movie," or see if there are any volunteer opportunities, stuff like that?

I hope the extra session helps.

Yes, I have a backup that I'm going to see. He also asked me to keep a journal while he's away that he will read once he's back. He's been trying to get me to pick a volunteer activity to do but I'm worried I won't feel up to leaving the house if I commit to something.

Counting the disastrous phone call with MC Sunday (20 min), extra session with T Monday (1 h--he pretty much always gives full hour), fairly long session with MC Monday (1 h, 15 min), session with T Wednesday (1 h), and p-doc this morning (25 min), I have spent 4 full hours talking to mental health professionals over the past 5 days. So, OK, think I'm all talked out for the week...

Is there something that you think might feel good to you? I like to have a plan before my T leaves. I usually ask her to help me formulate the plan because then it feels like she is part of it. There is usually an enticing knitting or crafting project involved because I know I can usually get myself to do that, even when I feel bad. Or maybe choosing a special Netflix series that you won't start until he's gone? Last time I put a countdown timer until my next appointment on my phone. It helped to see the time move steadily closer, although I could see where that might be not helpful if the next appointment seems too far away.

Yeah, we're supposed to write my plan down today. So far I'm at a loss. The only thing I have come up with is to take a shower every day even if I'm not going to leave the house. I feel like I should have more ideas by now, but I don't. I don't want to write down things that it's likely I won't actually do.

Would it be too weird to tell him that I'm going to miss him?

Could it help to come up with some reason to leave the house every day (that you aren't seeing backup T), even if it's just to go to a coffeeshop and get a cup of coffee? (whether drinking it there or bringing it home). Getting some takeout someplace? Picking something up at the store? Going for a short walk? As someone who works from home, I know if I don't actually leave the house for a few days I can get really in my head and feel quite isolated.

And I think it would be OK to tell T you'll miss him.

Definitely not weird at all!