First therapy session last week.

I went to see a counselor at my college for the first time ever. I have to say, it kinda sucks. She pretty much just sat down, took her notebook out and said "well, talk about it". And mostly just nodded and wrote stuff down the whole time.

When I told her I didn't know why some things in my past happened, she kept pressing it. When I truthfully said I didn't know what to say (which was a couple times), she just stared at me. I said I didn't know what I wanted out of it, she stared, so I made something up (kinda basic stuff). I was a little annoyed.

There was no guidance, which is what I was afraid of. I filled out a questionnaire/paperwork before meeting her and everything (it was LONG), but she didn't even use it. Some things I said, I thought were important, but she didn't even write it down. It just sucked.

Anyway, she's apparently just an intern, so not shocking. Maybe that's how it normally is though. I'm working on getting tested for other things from some specialists. Idk. Whatever happens.

My T once said that he keeps pressing people when they say that they do not know because lots of people in the beginning won't open up. As in they bring up the topic, say "my boyfriend and I had an argument", but then when he asks about what, they say "no idea" even though they exactly know what it was about. They kind of try to avoid the topic right after bringing it up.

However, without first knowing the person for a while, and believing that they have some trust in the therapist, I don't think a T should ever do that.

I find that I felt much better in sessions with psychologists/psychiatrists than my country's version of counselors, but that might be different where you are from.

She may have tried to just get an idea of what's going on with you. She may read the questionnaire and go from there next time. That's what hapoened when I met my T, and it wasn't my first time in therapy. Its always somewhat awkward to me, seeing a person youve never met and not really knowing what to say. I told her many "I don't knows" at that time, and it took us 2 sessions to really slowly start a relationship where more was possible.
So, what I'm trying to say is, it may take time.

Or, its possible you just don't click with her.

I understand that my T doesnt kniw what to do with me if all I say is IDK, and this still happens sometimes, even tho qe get along great. I niw try to write some things down I want to talk about during session because I know if the going gets rough, I do tend to blank and jot know what to talk about.

What are your hopes or expectations for therapy?

Stay the course. It can be rewarding if you keep at it.

Whatever I say I don't know my therapist so I says he doesn't know either. Danny says can you think about it a little bit give me some maybe's. Sometimes I will come up with an answer after that sometimes the answer still I don't know. Sometimes after that he'll say I have a hunch do you mind if I say my hunch.

Maybe the therapist that does your intake won’t be the same one to treat you? If you aren’t connecting to this t you can request another

first sessions tend to be different than later ones. they need to get to know what's going on first, before therapy really starts. you can ask for different T, if they are just not right for you. but giving it a few sessions first is wise.

Maybe she will have some advice next time.

It reminds me of my first therapy session with my first T. She was an intern too and in the first sessions kept writing on her notebook and didn't say that much. I had to sign a questionnaire too and she didn't read it. Then she said that usually they read the questionnaire later not in session I think to not waste the client's time! But then she became more open and more directive later on. So it's possible that your T is waiting, wants to know you first before talking, wants to give you time to open up. If you prefer a more directive T I would say try to confront her about this and tell her what are your needs, which is always a bit difficult at first. But she's there to listen to you so don't worry, you can talk about everything and express all your concerns