Couch 162: Let's Play Ball! (The Baseball Couch)

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So I never told h I saw t 4 weeks ago. I haven't told him yet that I'm going today after work. T calls that 'feminine wiles' but it feels like lying to me. I'm going to tell him about going today. I mean I know I'm not going to be able to once we start paying the hospital bills, so I want to go one more time before those bills start rolling in. We'll be paying hopefully a maximum of $5400.00 assuming everything is covered. I'll appeal whatever I have to of course. But until it's paid off, I won't be seeing t. Will work w hospital on a payment plan or something. Wish me luck telling h I'm going today...

Good luck, Art.

I would hope that H would see it as a positive that you are going to see T, to get support with the situation. It's always easier to lean on someone who is outside the immediate circle of impact.

Thanks, Lost. Just told him now. He was actually ok with it once I explained I wouldn't go again til the bills are all paid.

But it makes space for the emotions.

I love that chair-and-a-half size.

Outside t's office waiting for her to open the door...

I thought you wrote that you were waiting for her to open up the floor, and I thought, Man, you really do have unique sessions.

Well, sometimes I wish she WOULD open the floor...

Ugh.. I sucks at writing.. College is going well other than all the damn papers I have to write. Who wants to write all my papers for the next year???

Ugh.. I sucks at writing.. College is going well other than all the damn papers I have to write. Who wants to write all my papers for the next year???

For breastfeeding, perhaps?

What about other things besides talking? I don’t know if you’re on medication or want to be, but that can help with such heavy emotions. A while back your therapist suggested some kind of intensive program. Something like that, but outpatient so you can still work?

Failing that, some kind of physical or mental expression—hitting a punching bag, say—that might provide a different kind of relief?

Things will get better, and I think you have already been getting better in the time you’ve been posting here, but it does take time, and there’s no need to white-knuckle it every step of the way (says the white-knuckling pro).

Like a hidden trapdoor into a shark pool in a Bond film?

I guess I wonder what the actual point of the IOP is. I'm basically paying more people who can't actually be there for me when I have an emotional meltdown at 9pm or whatever. It just seems like an exercise in futility.

The paper writing is the fun part.

I hope so, because I have 7 to do this semester.

(Did you see how I spared you the exclamation points I wanted to add?)

It made your post sound positively demure and statesmanlike.

I guess I need to write that Contact Hypothesis Diversity paper this weekend.