<font color="purple"> So yeah, I told my mom about how I did a little research about trich and when she said if I might have it I just said that it wouldn't suprise me really. So she asked me if basicly what I was saying was that "I need a therapist" I really forgot how I responded to that.

I'm actualy...a little nervous really.
The only expirience that I've had with therapy is when I was a little kid. It's not like it was a horribly traumatic expirience or anything- infact seeing my therapist was pretty much one of the few joyful moments of my day back then, but I know that this would be different now.

It's funny really, because I've been wanting to do this for years. I wanted to figure out what the heck was going on in my head. But now that the actual ARRANGEMENTS are being made I'm getting nervous. Mostly because of the fear of if I'm wrong and my hair pulling etc is just a bad habbit and I'll be made a fool of. Also because I have a hard time talking to people. Period. Also, I'm worried that I'll have to take medication for my anxiety/depression because as far as I know that kind of medicine is only in pill form and I'm really bad at taking pills.

But yeah.
I'm really nervous
I think if I told anyone that I was seeing a therapist outside of my mom that they wouldn't unserstand. I seem so "normal" to them, my mom is the only person who really notices my inner struggles. I just don't see my friends that often, my brother and I are close, but he tends to stay distant from me when it comes to these kinds of problems unless I snap and just flip out at him in anger/sadness/fear. As for my father? He's is denial of his own problems and is so wrapped up with his new girlfriend I know he'd just shoot it down with something like "Your mom is crazy! You're fine! Why would you need a therapist when you can talk to ME anytime you want!?" *takes it personaly and falls into a depression thinking that he's a terrible father while confiding this only to his girlfriend*

wait...
...How did this go from
"therapy OMG"
to...
"My family OMG"
?

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[Kiya]

i hope it goes well for you =) kiya

[smiley1984]

I know it's scary but well done.
I was sooooo nervous the first time I went and I don't know why but I still get nervous as I'm going there each week even though I know it's not scary and the T is really nice.

They are really nice - I think it's part of their job description and they will not make you talk about stuff you don't want to.
I also hate talking about myself and it still feels weird and there are a lot of things I can't even talk about. I make myself feel better by never looking at my T in the eye. I've been seeing her for years and don't even know what her face looks like - but I could give you a detailed description of all her shows and the pattern on the carpet.

About the tablet thing - one of the anti-depressants fluoxetine (also known as lovan or prozac) is available in a non-tablet form. There are ones that you dissolve and water but it doesn't taste great.

As for telling others you are going, I would suggest don't unless they need to know for some reason. I haven't told anyone besides my partner. None of my friends know.

Everyone thinks that there problems are small and insignificant and they will look stupid by going to a T for them but you need help, and your problems aren't silly. You said your mom knows of your struggles and even suggested therapy - so you have someone else who thinks your problems aren't small.

Be sure to let us know how you go.
I know you will be nervous no matter how much everyone tells you it isn't that bad, but just make yourself go. Good Luck

[Perna]

Since CBT is most effective for trich, you could tell people you are taking "classes" if you get in a corner (but classes in what? LOL). I guess I'd imply that they were "remedial"/makeup classes or some new-fangled :-) "behavior modification classes like ones for stopping smoking" and just not say what the behavior was.

Think of a T as being like a teacher, too (which they are to a certain extent) and you're getting one-on-one tutoring. It can be very pleasant/interesting.

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/tri...mania/DS00895/

[Kiya]

Yep - I cried the first time i made a T appnt. And that was just for ADD therapy. I do still get nervous each week too - even after 4 years. But I make myself go. Besides, it's only me who stands in my own way. kiya

[MissCharlotte]

Kaika,

Congratulations on telling your Mom that you need support. That must have been really hard to do.

Having a T is awesome. You have someone who is not a member of your family to tell your secrets to and that person can help you get to know yourself.

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wait...
...How did this go from
"therapy OMG"
to...
"My family OMG"

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Welcome to therapy!

Best of luck.

<font color="purple">Yeah,

Well, apparently mom told my dad and stepdad
and they both agreed upon it.
We just need to find somebody
And also figure out how much dad's insurance will cover
(mom can't do that, seeing as she has no health insurance)

But anyways, there were about two people that are a possibility right now.

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