How would you take this?

So I have two T's right now. One is my normal psychologist who I have been seeing for 1 1/2 years now, the other is the trauma T I started last week. She is away for this week, and wanted me to see my regular T this week while she was away. So after my session last week with the new T, I called my old T about setting a appt this week while she is away. She said she was going to touch base with my old T and let him know how the session went and that she wanted me to see him this week. Well him and I decided that because he emails and calls almost everyday we are in enough contact with each other that a set session wasn't necessary.

Then Friday I had a rough day, called him he called back and we talked for quite awhile on the phone, Saturday I get a email from him saying that I could come in everyday this week for 20 minute sessions for relaxation and to talk. He wouldn't charge me for them!!! Ok, so I said yes, I can use them, and they help alot. But my question is this!!!

Why? Should I be reading into this? Would you read into this? I know the new T and I had a very intense session and my suicide thoughts were there, no matter how hard I tried to not let them come to the surface, they managed to at one point break through and I had a mild melt down in front of her. Is this the change of mind in my old T???? Should I just go with it and not question it??? What would do you think??

Yes, go with it and don't try to read too much into it. Your T isn't going to lie; he really means for you to go in for a 20 minute "break" each day for relaxation, etc.

yeah, i'd go with it too. What could the worst case scenario be? that your T's together have decided you need to receive more care and attention? that they should make sure you're safe? that maybe you could use a little extra TLC?

maybe i'm dense, but i don't know what could be read into this that would be bad. i'm guessing that you are worried maybe they think you're completely nuts... but this isn't hocus pocus, they'd tell you if they felt you were that bad, and the suggestion would be the hospital and not 20 min breaks.

it sounds to me like your old T feels compassionate.. and compassion is something one should never reject

If your former T is just filling in as any on-call therapist would, I think that's fine.

Yeah I guess that is what I thought, that they would think I was nuts......and yes my old T wants me to go to the hospital, my new T say's we can work together and help keep me out of the hospital. I wasn't going to say no to the hypnosis sessions, they work for me. I had the first tonight and was able to find my safe place again and relax in his office felt like the first time I had relaxed in forever.

I like my old T alot, he is wonderful, and we connect. He knew I needed more then he is skilled at so that is why I have the trauma therapist also. When I got to his office tonight, we talked alittle, he asked if I wanted to tell him what has been going on the past week or just relaxation tonight, I told him I really need to just relax I feel like a rubber band about to break, he was ok with that, we set up tomorrow's session and Wednesday's, he scheduled me a full hour on Wednesday to talk then do the hypnosis.

I guess I was getting myself worked up, thinking that they saw what I feel, that I am not able to be helped........that is how I feel these days, that nothing is going to work.......so when he asked me about doing the daily thing, my fear came to the forefront.

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confused4ever said:
I get a email from him saying that I could come in everyday this week for 20 minute sessions for relaxation and to talk. He wouldn't charge me for them!!!

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I guess my only hesitation would be that he is not charging for the sessions. I think that can cause confusion and anxiety for the client. If you're not paying, then does it mean the T is not providing professional services? Does it mean he is being more of a friend? Things can get confusing when there is no fee for service.

The positive is that you have your old T available to you for support when your trauma therapist is away.