Couch 177: I Get a Strange Magic - ELO

growlycat · Sep 01, 2018, 11:33 PM

Hello all- I know I’m not on the couch much anymore but just wondering if granite is ok? Haven’t seen her on pc in a while.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 06:48 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

I like hey arthur, i think. Isnt he a partidge or a possum or something? Who wears glasses?

He's an advark apparently from what I remember.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 06:53 AM

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Originally Posted by susannahsays

Well, couch, it's been a **** few days. My psychiatrist was slow about refilling one of my meds, then there was some insurance issue, so I had to go without for two days. It's been horrible. I was already feeling suicidal, and withdrawal didn't help. Plus, I have a ton of assignments due in the next couple of days. And I apparently got the wrong textbook from the bookstore for one of my classes (even though it was the correct title and edition per the syllabus), so got a 0 on an assignment. Also, the chain fell off my bike halfway to campus, so I had to walk her all the way home. And I keep crying through work because stupid therapy broke me. Feeling exquisitely sorry for myself.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain right now.When I was on medication the shrink I saw said I should ideally start bugging him two weeks before I was going to run out.

The book I'd try to return if you have a receipt. It sounds odd. Maybe the teacher made an error.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 06:54 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

And I just totally slipped on a wet spot on the (hardwood) stairs and fell. My left lower back and elbow are not happy...

I hope you're okay and haven't really hurt yourself badly. That sounds very painful.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 06:57 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Diana is quite a beautiful badass.

Yes! This movie was awesome, I loved the girl power message. I wanted to be strong like her. I would have dressed up as a wonder women for halloween last year but then decided to stay at home like a good cat.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 07:00 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Meanwhile, my T always replies to email within 24 hours, even when away, and it's now been 23.5 hours...

Did you get a reply?

I feel like I had this with R. I expected him to still respond within the 2 days we had agreed on despite the fact that he was on holiday. It would have been easier if he had said he'd check every 6 days or so.

LonesomeTonight · Sep 02, 2018, 07:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

Did you get a reply?

I feel like I had this with R. I expected him to still respond within the 2 days we had agreed on despite the fact that he was on holiday. It would have been easier if he had said he'd check every 6 days or so.

No reply from T yet...I'm just trying to tell myself he's busy and hasn't had time to look at it. It's not like he specifically said if he'd be checking email during this time--normally I'd say something at end of session to confirm, but with it being phone session, I didn't think to. I think it's just harder because I haven't seen him in person since two Fridays ago. Even though we did talk Wednesday. I just feel disconnected from him.

LonesomeTonight · Sep 02, 2018, 07:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I hope you're okay and haven't really hurt yourself badly. That sounds very painful.

Thanks, Lemon. Back's a bit sore, but not as bad as I'd feared. I'm putting ice on it.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 07:28 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

No reply from T yet...I'm just trying to tell myself he's busy and hasn't had time to look at it. It's not like he specifically said if he'd be checking email during this time--normally I'd say something at end of session to confirm, but with it being phone session, I didn't think to. I think it's just harder because I haven't seen him in person since two Fridays ago. Even though we did talk Wednesday. I just feel disconnected from him.

I can really understand your feelings. Could you open up some older emails? I once marked one as unread so it would stay at the top of my inbox and look like it was new or perhaps write him a message but "reply" to it as he would.

How many days till you see him again?

LonesomeTonight · Sep 02, 2018, 08:50 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I can really understand your feelings. Could you open up some older emails? I once marked one as unread so it would stay at the top of my inbox and look like it was new or perhaps write him a message but "reply" to it as he would.

How many days till you see him again?

Thanks, Lemon. That's a good idea to look at older emails. I would hold the stone, but...the email was partly about wanting to keep it longer instead of returning it Tuesday, so it will just make me think of the email. I see him Tuesday, so only 2 days, but it feels like a long time since I've seen him, when I'm used to twice a week.

DP_2017 · Sep 02, 2018, 09:18 AM

Yep I've looked at old emails too. Helps often.

Lt, maybe it's better to discuss in person. You told him you would return it when you got back so discussing why you feel the need to extend is likely a better in person chat. Prepare for him to say no or be uncomfortable though. He's probably busy this holiday weekend. Yep missing them is tough. You at least got a call though. That would have made a world of difference for me.
Just 2 more days to go. Almost there. You got this.

Sep 02, 2018, 09:19 AM

I hope all the couchies are having a lovely day

susannahsays · Sep 02, 2018, 09:31 AM

Well, I got my medication yesterday afternoon. I feel so much better. If something ever happens that affects my ability to get my meds, like the zombie apocalypse or something, I am so screwed. But for now, I am ok.

This has definitely made me want to start tapering the adderall again, though. I hate being addicted.

LostOnTheTrail · Sep 02, 2018, 09:36 AM

Anniversary of the day I first went to the doctor's and said 'I am Not OK.'

Possible trigger:

Today is hard, therefore I am eating my feelings.

SalingerEsme · Sep 02, 2018, 09:41 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

No reply from T yet...I'm just trying to tell myself he's busy and hasn't had time to look at it. It's not like he specifically said if he'd be checking email during this time--normally I'd say something at end of session to confirm, but with it being phone session, I didn't think to. I think it's just harder because I haven't seen him in person since two Fridays ago. Even though we did talk Wednesday. I just feel disconnected from him.

Any word from T yet? It's stressful waiting, and then such a hit of dopamine/relief when an answer shows up, and then it comes down to the content. Like everyone else, I think there's a good chance maybe his family said NO WORK this holiday or he just unplugged from work? I hate being my T's work, when it feels so personal to me- most personal stuff in a way. Therapy is at its worst on holidays imo, and at its best in regular routine. I hope he does write, but he might feel like the phone call went well, and didn't think to check email?

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 09:46 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Thanks, Lemon. That's a good idea to look at older emails. I would hold the stone, but...the email was partly about wanting to keep it longer instead of returning it Tuesday, so it will just make me think of the email. I see him Tuesday, so only 2 days, but it feels like a long time since I've seen him, when I'm used to twice a week.

LT you could be my PC twin! I have my own transitional object, i feel safer with it than without so it makes sense that you'd want to keep it longer. I also see T on tuesday and I'm on twice a week - it still feels incredibly long.

Sep 02, 2018, 09:47 AM

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Originally Posted by growlycat

Hello all- I know I’m not on the couch much anymore but just wondering if granite is ok? Haven’t seen her on pc in a while.

I haven't either, hoping she's ok too. Granite are you out there?

LonesomeTonight · Sep 02, 2018, 09:51 AM

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Originally Posted by DP_2017

Yep I've looked at old emails too. Helps often.

Lt, maybe it's better to discuss in person. You told him you would return it when you got back so discussing why you feel the need to extend is likely a better in person chat. Prepare for him to say no or be uncomfortable though. He's probably busy this holiday weekend. Yep missing them is tough. You at least got a call though. That would have made a world of difference for me.
Just 2 more days to go. Almost there. You got this.

He just responded and said those would be good things to discuss Tuesday, so he thought the same as you! And he asked if I could shift my session time, which I feel he does a lot. I mean, I can, I'm flexible since I work from home, it's just annoying.

I thought I'd be comforted by getting an email response, but I feel kind of sad instead. And I'm just more nervous about Tuesday now. At least I know he's alive! (Which I was starting to worry about a bit.)

SalingerEsme · 10:12 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Wow. That's... that's really powerful for me.

This part in particular hit me:

"Maybe it’s enough to recognize

ourselves unsolvable, half trash,
half glitter bomb, dropped along
the trench by dying stars."

I'm really not sure if I feel sad, or just simple recognition, or.... ???

Thank you for sharing it.

I like that part too. I felt for the ending stanzas that reckoned with a part of therapy that worries me too / worries me the most. The idea of Ginger Rogers in the most romantic looking & seemingly sincere dance, bleeding into her high heels and Fred A or whomever not even liking her as a person.

"A fragrant character at most,
he’s so metal, and hard to woo,

and God knows I’m terrible
at therapy—"

What is the antecedent - the therapist or the gargoyle, lol ? I try so hard to win over my therapist and also to find the requisite gargoyle

I thought this had great pithy black humor:
like tourists walking off
of cliffs while taking selfies.

Lemoncake · Sep 02, 2018, 09:56 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

He just responded and said those would be good things to discuss Tuesday, so he thought the same as you! And he asked if I could shift my session time, which I feel he does a lot. I mean, I can, I'm flexible since I work from home, it's just annoying.

I thought I'd be comforted by getting an email response, but I feel kind of sad instead. And I'm just more nervous about Tuesday now. At least I know he's alive! (Which I was starting to worry about a bit.)

Could you ask him for a regular time slot so no more being changed around?

What do you think is triggering the feelings of sadness?

Sep 02, 2018, 10:03 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

He just responded and said those would be good things to discuss Tuesday, so he thought the same as you! And he asked if I could shift my session time, which I feel he does a lot. I mean, I can, I'm flexible since I work from home, it's just annoying.

I thought I'd be comforted by getting an email response, but I feel kind of sad instead. And I'm just more nervous about Tuesday now. At least I know he's alive! (Which I was starting to worry about a bit.)

I'm glad he responded; wish it had been a more comforting response for you though.

ChickenNoodleSoup · Sep 02, 2018, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

He just responded and said those would be good things to discuss Tuesday, so he thought the same as you! And he asked if I could shift my session time, which I feel he does a lot. I mean, I can, I'm flexible since I work from home, it's just annoying.

I thought I'd be comforted by getting an email response, but I feel kind of sad instead. And I'm just more nervous about Tuesday now. At least I know he's alive! (Which I was starting to worry about a bit.)

If he asks whether you can change the time, you can always say no. It's already scheduled, you're allowed to organize things around it as well. Just because you can change the time doesn't mean you have to.

unaluna · Sep 02, 2018, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

He's an advark apparently from what I remember.

No! An aardvark looks like a tiny hairy elephant! Youre teasing me! Thats one animal i DO know! They are very beautiful.

stopdog · Sep 02, 2018, 10:14 AM

Arthur is an aardvark.
Arthur - Marc Brown Studios
"the little aardvark with a big agenda"

DP_2017 · Sep 02, 2018, 10:14 AM

Lt

That's a huge reason why i stopped emailing. I started to have depressed or more sad feelings than happy or relief. I find it much better to discuss things in person. You can talk in real time and see facial reactions etc. That's why i write down things as they come up during week and then decide what's still important come sessions time. I miss emails but it's so much better overall having the real time discussions.

Be glad he at least replied on a Sunday. Many will not. At least you heard.

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