Couch 182: Spiced Gingerbread.

Today was pure crap, emotionally. I was out shopping and found a massive trigger that related to my big loss last year, I nearly broke down in the store sobbing. (I don't do emotions publicly) It took everything I had in me to hold it together. Of course I ended up buying the item anyway... and carried with me the rest of the day

I badly wanted to reach out to my T, to hear his voice, tell him I wish we could hug right now, anything. Worst feeling on top of what I was already dealing with, knowing on weekends, I am "just work" and I can't bother him. I really needed him today. I wish I'd been brave enough to reach out anyway but when he ignored me that would have made it all worse. I love my T, but this is the worst thing, when I REALLY need him, if it's on a weekend, I'm out of luck. Sigh....

I'm emotionally spent today

D's apartment is spacious, relatively speaking. It's kinda beige right now but she's snuck little pops of color in here and there. The best thing is she feels safe and comfortable there, so I couldn't be more satisfied.

In 8 to 10 years, I get to do this again!

I must be tired—I just accidentally hugged a Stopdog post.

Don’t worry, I removed it pronto.

Hate it when kids grow up and leave.
NOW, who's gonna go get the remote and hand it to me?

That's one perk of having a remote control app on my cell phone lol!

there is no right way or wrong way just my way. Tis is my new mantra.

Getchyerself a concubine.

Thank goodness I did not see it.

Dammit Una, my keyboard can't take anymore!
I just snorted tea. AND a peanut butter M&M, which tried to lodge itself in a sinus. Now I have a snotty tea drenched keyboard and a Jimmy Durante schnozzle. Thanks heaps.

Have managed to reach midday without retiring to bed, even managed to do a tiny bit of painting. The depression blanket isnt so heavy now.

I am somewhat disturbed by the fact that you combine tea and peanut butter M&Ms.

I enjoy coffee and peanut M&M’s

It's cold, cold winter up here. Them frozen pellets need warmin' up.

I cant take credit for the joke, my mini-me lemoncake had long so declared herself.

Im having republic of tea coconut chocolate tea, whose fragrance is probably similar to your current nasal secretions.

No M&M left behind!

Them frozen pellets *do* make their way to my behind. Which, to think of it, is where this whole thread started. It was your focus on the "stuff after the colon" that first spewed itself over my poor and soggy keyboard. Like I said, thanks heaps.

You like me, you really like me! #gidget4ever

So I am surrounded by peanut butter M&Ms, a half-finished bag of potato chips, and empty wrappers of what was left of the Halloween candy. While I work on a paper I'm writing about... the perils of hyperglycemia.

What's the movie where the journalist wannabe is asked to define "irony"? Reality Bites? This is Reality Bites Back in the Butt.

Dunno, but it’s defined in “Teaching Mrs. Tingle” too.

I just read the plot and some reviews for Teaching Mrs. Tingle. It's on my list! I love dark comedy; it reminds me of Heathers.

Veronica Sawyer: This may seem like a really stupid question...
J.D.: There *are* no stupid questions.
Veronica Sawyer: You inherit 5 million dollars the same day aliens land on the earth and say they're going to blow it up in 2 days. What do you do?
J.D.: That's the stupidest question I've ever heard.

I think i saw it on tv. One of those things you half watch on a rainy saturday afternoon.

You are going to be impossible to live with after that sort of encouragement.

I am reasonably not unfond of you. Whether is because of or despite of the fact we almost never understand each other may be best left unexplored.

From stopdog this is a major declaration of lurve.

I don't think my H will get a job, I'll lose my house, probably some of my dogs, I won't be able to afford my T, and I won't be able to afford IVF or adoption. All the struggling and fighting will be a waste. I wish things were different, but I really don't have much hope for the future

Today i managed to stay upright and mobile for 12 hours and spent a lot of that time reasonably grounded. I am tired now and just want to lie here.