Couch 186: Pink Lemonade

Ooh I'll have some eggs.

*passes around a basket of fruit

*Takes an apple* Thanks, I could use a morning snack.

Contacting a new therapy center today or tomorrow. T encouraged me to actually, I guess she doesn't quite feel equipped to handle what I'm going through. Am nervous to reach out but hopefully it'll go okay.

Maybe it's more a case of wanting to arm you with extra support than anything else?

I agree with Lost. You need as much help as you need. I hope it went well.

Good points Lost and Lemon.

It's okay to cry Artie. Your feelings are valid and I don't think it's something you need to grow up about.

I'm sorry this is so hard for you right now.

Have you tried any other medication ?

Anyone else watching Watership down on Netflix?

Well called the therapy center and got an answering machine. Maybe they are out to lunch? Will try again later.

I'm sorry, Butterfly.

Do you use gesso when you paint? I'm just getting started with some mixed media work, and my gesso isn't due to get here until the beginning of February. I don't have enough acrylic paint to use as a stopgap, so I was wondering whether there's anything else I could do that would enable me to layer up?

Thanks.

I'm about three hours into my workday and I already pretty much got my work done, so now it's time to check out PC and see what is going on. I have to talk to the owner today when he comes in because I'm waiting for another department to get me information and it's been 2 to 3 weeks now and my emails are going unanswered. I can't close out the month without this information so it's frustrating. But it's not the only information I'm waiting on so I'm not as frustrated as I could be. Good morning Couch! Kit

I didn't do much this weekend, but I'm less upset that former T hasn't emailed me back (yet). I think she will, but it's just going to take her time. I long to hear from her but I know it's going to just take time. Kit

When I hear watership down, I think of the sad movie with rabbits...

H's job is making some changes that he's upset about because it involves a little more technology than in the past and he doesn't want to learn it, and wants to just quit. I've already figured it out but he won't let me show him. I think he just really wants to quit anyway because they haven't been giving him much work in the last few weeks. I feel like he's wanting me to tell him to quit. I did say maybe let me show you, give it a try and see how it goes and at the same time look for a different job? He's gone to bed now. He's getting older and I know that is hard for him and I fear he's sinking into depression again. The last time he looked like he does today in his eyes.... I tried to get him to talk to the Dr about it but he refused. I imagine he will react the same way this time. He got upset with me when I suggested counseling the last time. He's snapping at me for feeling anxious about our son moving his gf in and at just about everything I say today. I don't know how to be around him when he's like this. What am I supposed to do/say?? I hope he feels better when he wakes up again.

Art - my suggestion is that you don't try and DO anything. Don't let him treat you badly, but don't try to fix it. You can't. You all are handling your son's move out differently. I think it is having bearing on both of you -but you approach it very differently and just confuse and annoy the bejeesus out of each other because of it. You cry about it and he gets angry about it. He wants you to stop being sad (or be different X) and you want him to stop being angry (or to be different X). But neither of you can fix it for the other.
Just how I see it.

Thanks sd.

Eta: and if I weren't working weekends I would be going to CODA meetings I could use that right now. I think I'll look for an online meeting.

Dammit no course drops yet.

Well I feel ridiculous. I thought the first day of the semester was today, but it's not until next Monday.

I just cried at a dr receptionist. I feel so badly for that. It is the dr who is incompetent and not her.

Argh, I'm watching a clip of that In Treatment show, and it's making me rather anxious. It's so awkward!

Man today was long! Glad to be home. Hope you all had a good Monday.

Darn.

My surprise for the first day of classes was that they changed the master schedule and moved my conference without telling me. I was on automatic pilot and, silly me, assumed the schedule they had on the computer when I left for Christmas was what it was going to be. Much to my surprise, I had students show up during my conference period. At least it was the course I was expecting to teach, but it definitely threw off my mojo for a minute. LOL.

We have a very different idea of what disgraces the name of cheese, Malfoy.

No.