[SlumberKitty]

Hi everyone, so I'm wondering if I should tell my T, either of them, about

Possible trigger:

my recent sui attempt

. Obviously it didn't work. And I feel much better now, so is it worth bringing up? The past is the past. It's not like I can go back and change it. On the other hand. Maybe we can come up with a better crisis plan. When this happened in the far past and I told my T she was not at all pleased because I didn't come to her beforehand. But we also didn't make a better safety plan. Just wondering what the wise consensus of the group is. Thanks all, hugs. Kit

[winter4me]

Yes. You feel much better now. What has changed? Do make a safety plan that works for you. This is important. Glad you are here to make changes.(((hug))))

[LonesomeTonight]

Hugs, Kit--I'm glad you weren't successful. By recent, do you mean in the past week? I recall you saying you'd told your T how you were feeling and she didn't really seem to be overly concerned or anything--like didn't tell you to go to the hospital if you keep feeling that way.

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And I recall you saying that you'd told her you had a plan, right? And asked her if that method would work, and she said yes?

. I think you need to tell her (and maybe Pastor T, too, less sure about him) so that she understands to take these feelings seriously and to help you figure out a crisis plan. Honestly, the fact that she didn't seem to take this seriously concerned me...

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I've talked about fleeting thoughts to my T before and he didn't seem overly concerned, but I think he'd react differently if I told him I had a plan. Well, actually I guess there was one night he was really concerned and emailed me back a couple times even though it was kinda late on a Friday night.

But I think you need to tell her. Hugs...

[nottrustin]

you absolutely need to tell her. I would hope the two or you will be able to talk about what happened, how it could have been prevented and had a crisis plan in place. I am thankful you are here to talk about this. Hug!!

[Taylor27]

Hugs @SlumberKitty i'm very glad you are here hugs. I would tell your t and your pastor t it is important that they take you seriously. It's something that they have to not take lightly. I myself have been there and my new t wants me to tell her even if i have thoughts. I too am concerned your t is not taking this very seriously. I am glad you feel better and I hope your t can help you come up with a crisis plane. Hugs

[downandlonely]

I think we all agree that you should tell the T.

[Lonelyinmyheart]

I'm really sorry you felt like that Kit. I also think you should tell your T. It's a really important thing to talk about so that you can find ways of managing your feelings if/when you feel that way again. Just because you feel better now doesn't mean the feelings won't come back again. The best time to think about crisis management is when you're NOT in crisis and your head is clearer.

[unaluna]

I would also check with my pdoc to make sure my meds are covering all the bases. Even if it means going IP for a few days to effect a med change?

[Out There]

I'm glad you're still with us Kit , please do tell your T's. You feel OK now , but the feelings that brought you to that place need to be looked at. Hugs.

[ElectricManatee]

I'm sorry you have been feeling so awful, and I am glad you are still here. I think you need to take these feelings very seriously because denying/minimizing/rationalizing your feelings (e.g., telling yourself "the past is past") is part of the vicious cycle of depression, so it is likely to make you feel worse in the long run. I hope your T will take your feelings seriously and help you deal with them because I definitely think you deserve emotional support.

I am glad you failed! Tell your therapist about whatever feels important, but it is good to see you still here

[SummerTime12]

First, I’m so glad that you are ok and still here with us. I do think it’s important to tell your t so that she knows where you’re at, even if you’re feeling better now. It’s definitely time for a new safety plan. I’m not sure exactly what happened with your T (the stuff @LonesomeTonight was referring to), but it sounds a bit similar to a recent situation I had with my T where I felt he wasn’t taking my suicidal thoughts seriously. In my case, talking about it with him helped a lot, although it did take 2 conversations to resolve things fully. I hope that if you decide to tell your T she responds well and in a helpful way!

[Omers]

I am so glad you are still with us.
I would tell T and Pdoc. T and I would work it out OK... Pdoc? Eh, not sure how that would go.

[~Christina]

Yes definitely talk to your T . You need to figure out a better safety plan. Glad your safe

[velcro003]

I'd definitely tell your T about it. I am glad you are safe now, and so sorry you have been feeling so bad recently.

[atisketatasket]

I would tell your regular therapist. I think Pastor T would not be helpful.

People IRL—you were reaching out to friends just recently. Keep it up, whatever you tell them.

[Rive.]

I would tell them. The fact that you took this step shows that you need a higher level of care. Even if it means moving on to other mental health professionals who could support you better.

[ScarletPimpernel]

Kit - I feel for you and the pain you mist be feeling to do that. I'm so glad you're still here. Please tell your T. And I agree: I don't think pastor T will help. Please please know that we care about you and are here for you.

[ArtleyWilkins]

Please tell your therapist, but perhaps more importantly, if you have a psychiatrist that is managing medications, please contact that doctor and let them know what is going on so any needed adjustments can be made.

[SlumberKitty]

Thanks everyone for the encouragement and letting me know you think it's a good idea to talk to my T (or maybe both T's and possibly Pdoc). I should have gone to the hospital. *Hindsight is 20/20* I think I will tell regular T. I'm not sure about Pastor T. He had knee replacement surgery two weeks ago, so I haven't seen him as a patient/client in a few (3?) weeks. He asked me in the hallway at Church yesterday if I was doing okay and I kind of lied and said, "Ok-ish" I didn't think that was the time or place to talk about it. Especially with people milling around and I'm not entirely sure I am comfortable telling him stuff like that because he is close to my parents. I know confidentiality and all that, but they can break that if there is suicidal thinking involved. He told me to keep working on the visualizations. I'm not sure if I can get in to see Pdoc. He is moving his practice at the beginning of the year so he is super packed right now. I can try to see if I can get on a wait list, if he still has a wait list. I'll definitely talk to regular T on Wednesday though. Thank you everyone for your support. HUGS Kit

[velcro003]

Is there a way to let your Pdoc know it is an emergency to see him?

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by velcro003

Is there a way to let your Pdoc know it is an emergency to see him?

I don't know. I'll ask the receptionist tomorrow when I go for T appointment. They are in the same office.

[SlumberKitty]

I did it. I told someone IRL about my attempt (via text) I was too chicken to tell someone in person. But it went well. Actually I told another friend via email too. I guess that's pretty good. I'm trying to open up and let people in.....It's hard though. Talk to T tomorrow. Reveal time........well, we will see how this goes.

[LostOnTheTrail]

I'll jump in your pocket, Kit. Opening up is very hard.

[SlumberKitty]

Thanks @LostOnTheTrail!