Why did T have to go and be supportive????

I have been with my new T five weeks now and he has been amazing. This week he is not in his office. My husband threw me out Monday and I sent T a message just because I thought T would be mad if he didn’t find out until next week. T was supper supportive and has asked me to keep checking in. Not what I was expecting, I wasn’t even expecting a reply... well with all the aftermath of dealing with work and getting back in the house... my brain decides to have an aha moment and process a whole bunch of stuff that included the base for my greatest fears with T right now. So I sent it. Now I have been sick all day, worked up and neurotic fearing a positive reply, a negative reply or no reply at all... poor T can’t win.
I just want to curl up and hibernate until I see him Monday then cower my way into his office. With the cold weather I have a farm full of animals needing care and obviously some family dynamics going on so help is minimal, hibernation is out of the question. I am unraveling despite using my skills from previous therapists. I NEVER expected to be this needy with T (also never expected my hubby to turn into an insecure jealous nut job when I started with T so....). Now I am getting sick again from the stress. I am at a loss. This would have been SO much easier if he were crappy like my previous T’s or if I could have stayed in crisis (and in survival mode) until he got back.
I feel like I am doing “it” all wrong. Like any minute he is going to call or message and fire me for being a pain. Or call and be supportive and I won’t be able to keep myself together until Monday.

Wow. That's a tough one. I have no idea what I'd do since I've never been in that kind of tough place even closely. May be fully focus on what is right in front of you and what you need to do right now in the moment? And take it slow and easy? And, then, hopefully, it'll get a little easier when your T comes back..

This is 'Merica. Even if you weren't married, it is highly unlikely you could be "thrown out" of your home. I say this without specific knowledge of the law where you indicate you live. What I mean is absent a court order, you have just as much right to be at your home (and are you taking care of the farm animals in this weather anyway?) as your spouse. Please consult a family law attorney as I believe you could be disadvantaging yourself for the future if you "abandon" the family home.

Now, that doesn't mean you want to be where someone else doesn't want you, or that it is safe to do so. Maybe it's better that you are not there. But I am glad your T is supportive and I would continue to allow him to support you. I don't see any real "neediness" here.

I am glad you have supportive T. That means so much. As about your husband he cannot legally throw you out. I recommend you talk to a lawyer ASAP and perhaps if you are thrown out with any kind of force, police. No one can throw anyone out. If yiu are in danger, then it’s even more paramount that you contact authorities ASAP