Couch 189: The Oxford Couch

I'm sorry you're struggling again. I hope you can find what you need from him.

I’ve found that people are most reassured I’m okay when they hear it verbally. Lots of people miss body language and signals.

Hope you’re feeling better.

Thanks @atisketatasket You're probably right. I tend to go mute when I'm not feeling well emotionally. And my boss tends to know me better than I think. I'm not sure she "bought" that I was really okay but without evidence to the contrary, she left it alone. I'll be okay in a little while. I just have to shake off these depressing thoughts invading my mind.

You're entitled to ask about his supervision.

You could say, "Personal troubles. I don't want talk about it. Thanks for noticing, though."

Got done with baby T. Rather annoyed it was 45 min and i wasn't told that up front, we basically just did intake, so again, I felt like it was a waste.

I've gotta decide, he's super nice and friendly but that itself could be a problem. I don't know what to do at the moment. Gotta debate over the weekend

Art, I'd like to hear more about it if you want to PM me.

I have to post this so I can end my posts for the day on a 5 or a 0. A little bit of my paranoia and/or OCD tendencies kicking in. So just ignore this one. I kind of wish there wasn't a post counter because I hate when I don't end for the day on a 5 or a 0. Have a good night everyone! HUGS Kit

I’ve been tired the past couple days. I’m also fighting off a cold that I picked up somehow. Quite annoying.

Someone (no here on the forum) wrote LOL to me in response to something I said but I was not telling a joke. I’m not sure why the person wrote LOL. I don’t like when people LOL me if I didn’t clearly tell a joke. I take it as someone dismissing what I’m saying. Am I just being sensitive? . I just think it’s pretty damn rude and dismissive. At least I thought it was in the particular context I’m referring to.

me toooooo

I loathe the use of lol, so I don’t think you’re overreacting.

Thank you.

sent LT & Velcro... you may regret it

I am so not in the mood for Info tomorrow, but it’s too late to cancel.

She just makes things worse when I feel this bad. Not a lot worse, but she’s not even a net positive.

Let me at er. I ate my spinach today! 💪🏻

Maybe if she has any actual insights I’ll do the eff-you clap at her.

thanks! read it...but probably won't reply until tomorrow at some point, maybe over the wekeend, depending on how tomorrow goes.

Hey everyone.
I feel like one nudge away from losing my mind. H quit his job today and is going to try Uber/Lyft. I'm too worried this is going to go to crap with how everything else is with him how he waits until the last minute to do stuff.
My oldest got sent home from school 2 days in a row for throwing chairs and tipping over tables. Today he lifted the table in his classroom and a girl got hit in the head with the leg so he got sent home not even an hour after I dropped him off. I don't know why he's regressing.
The only thing keeping me safe is I scheduled a consult for a tattoo I want. I'll be watching my brother in laws dogs for a week and he's paying me for it. So I'm going to do something for myself for a friggin change.

Won't regret! But if I take a little time to respond, it's just because I have lots of work due tomorrow. Will definitely reply by tomorrow evening though!

Please do. ( I’m a bad influence. )

I need to go to bed. Work 8-6 tomorrow and every time I sneeze I feel like my brain is gonna pop out of my head.

As much as I wanted to quit my Astronomy class last weekend, I'm kinda enjoying it now. (I know, I'm a mess.) Reading about ancient astronomy is fascinating. And we have the field trip coming up to Kitt Peak Observatory, not far from here, next month. It's on a Sunday so I won't have to miss work to go. We can bring a guest, so I asked H if he wanted to go and he said "Sure". (He's off on Sundays). And prof just graded the module 2 discussion posts and I scored 120% again. I am doing more than required on those because writing comes easily to me unlike the other stuff so I'll take my points where I can get them!! My other grades on things are in the 80% range for the most part except that one 67% or whatever and one 33% both of which threw me into my tizzy. Hoping they'll balance out if I stay in the 80% range. I'm starting to relax about it, believe it or not, the advice from the couch was very helpful in that regard, and trying to just letting myself learn for the pleasure of learning and not worry about the grades so much.

Back to studying....

@SheHulk07 you are going through a lot with your husband and son. Hope things look up soon.

What tattoo are you going to get?

I want to get Belle from beauty and the beast with the enchanted rose for my youngest daughter. Something like the pictures but combined someway.

What do you do when you find yourself in that place where you keep telling yourself that this is all made up, not me, it's a lie, not real, only looking for attention, stupid... whatever your version of "I'm not really like this, I'm fine"? Even if you know you've been as authentic as you think you can safely be and you can see yourself making behavior choices that do not help you get to where you want to be.

(And am contemplating some form of chemical assistance to escape for the rest of the night)

Yeah been here for several days/week