Couch 189: The Oxford Couch

Lemoncake · 05:23 PM

I'm triggered and acting like a complete fruit loop:

Possible trigger:

yesterday at 7.30pm Email 2:

You’re there Mr S but you’re not really there for me.

You originally said 9.30am on Friday the 1st the week I was still In London, but I said I wouldn’t be able to explain my absence for a second time. But that I would want the second session when I got back. I don’t want it next week and I won’t ask again.

My exam is on Tuesday the 12th and I don’t want to see you straight after. Maybe it would be a good time to take a break from you and just see you the following week on the 19th.

No reply back. Cue :

Email 3 at 10.04pm : See you on tuesday I guess.

Email 4 at 10:54pm: I don't care if this is my fourth email. I quit.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:14 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

My area is expecting a big storm to roll in this weekend from Canada. My city apparently doesn't deal with ice very well so I'm already preparing myself mentally to have to miss my session on Monday. I like snow, but not when it interferes with my therapy.

Maybe you could do a phone session rather than miss it altogether?

Feb 07, 2019, 05:16 PM

Oh Lemoncake. I'm sorry. Please stay safe.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:16 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Just follow the trail of Oreo crumbs.

Hmmm it obviously depends on what flavor they are....

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:18 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Oh Lemoncake. I'm sorry. Please stay safe.

I'm okay now-

I've stopped crying. I'm eating my feelings (cookies with double chocolate) and I'm going to compose a i'm sorry email.

Thank you for replying Artie. It really does help.

How was your morning session with L?

SlumberKitty · Feb 07, 2019, 05:18 PM

HUGS Lemoncake

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

HUGS Lemoncake

"Can you feeeeeeeeeeeeel the love tonight that the evening brings?"

Okay I'm going to stop being weird soon, pharma's just getting to me.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:23 PM

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Originally Posted by StressedMess

Hey new couch! Just marking my place so I can find my way back this evening.

Taylor will help you find your way back.

Waterloo12345 · Feb 07, 2019, 05:25 PM

Snap. Am eating my feelings too. Pure butter Scottish shortbread. It's cause it's two weeks tomorrow my doc ceased treatment and I got an appointment with the doc that is not him.

I don't want to see her. I'm angry she's not him. She's horrid. The whole place is horrid. Do we have to go?

EtA: Yes we do need to go because she's the link to our care from the nhs and even though you hate her, and we think she's bloody useless, and the nhs doesn't give a ****, she's part of our safety plan and to keep us safe we need her on board and she does provide a containment function. Don't worry we'll take care of her.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Client xx

Come to NZ, you'll be sweating buckets

We also have another NZ couchie, next holiday spot it is!

CantExplain · Feb 07, 2019, 05:31 PM

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Originally Posted by DP_2017

Anyone tried a young, fairly new T? Did it go well or not? The new guy I'm seeing tonight is quite young, I'd guess no more than 30 and the company says he's new for them and has no profile on the website. I'm just wondering if this is always a bad idea with inexperience or is it sometimes ok?

How is his supervision?

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Waterloo12345

Snap. Am eating my feelings too. Pure butter Scottish shortbread. It's cause it's two weeks tomorrow my doc ceased treatment and I got an appointment with the doc that is not him.

I don't want to see her. I'm angry she's not him. She's horrid. The whole place is horrid. Do we have to go?

I also bought R Shortbread biscuits when I saw him in person. It's so darn good and the calories

are worth it though.

I think I have read your thread but I may be confusing your posts, unless she is the only doc there I would honestly try to find someone you actually feel comfortable with.

DP_2017 · Feb 07, 2019, 05:35 PM

I made it but parking isnt plowed. Now I'm scared I'll get stuck going home

DP_2017 · Feb 07, 2019, 05:36 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

How is his supervision?

No clue

I'm herr so I'll see how it goes

Waterloo12345 · Feb 07, 2019, 05:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I also bought R Shortbread biscuits when I saw him in person. It's so darn good and the calories

are worth it though.

I think I have read your thread but I may be confusing your posts, unless she is the only doc there I would honestly try to find someone you actually feel comfortable with.

Calories defo worth it 😍😍😍

Well I'm in special measures- been assigned her by the practice after developing transference for my old doc. I could change surgeries but that's a bloody hassle and the woman is perfectly civil and professional - my t would say the only prob with her is that she's not my old doc!!! At this stage everyone would be horrid.

Feb 07, 2019, 05:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I'm okay now-

I've stopped crying. I'm eating my feelings (cookies with double chocolate) and I'm going to compose a i'm sorry email.

Thank you for replying Artie. It really does help.

How was your morning session with L?

Hugs.

It went well, thanks. Uncomfortable topic and I cried a good bit but it was a really good, open and honest discussion. I gave her the poem I wrote for her in December which I forgot the other day. She said it was such a gift. I'm glad I went and that we finished the discussion about that stuff that started the other day.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 05:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Waterloo12345

Calories defo worth it 😍😍😍

Well I'm in special measures- been assigned her by the practice after developing transference for my old doc. I could change surgeries but that's a bloody hassle and the woman is perfectly civil and professional - my t would say the only prob with her is that she's not my old doc!!! At this stage everyone would be horrid.

Transference is very very common, but if she's only for medication review and civil then perhaps it might be easier to stay with her.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 06:03 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Hugs.

It went well, thanks. Uncomfortable topic and I cried a good bit but it was a really good, open and honest discussion. I gave her the poem I wrote for her in December which I forgot the other day. She said it was such a gift. I'm glad I went and that we finished the discussion about that stuff that started the other day.

I noticed the writing under your picture. I'm honestly glad it went well. I'm proud of all the progress you've made and it does give me hope that I can also get through the whole transference thing but oh is it stupidly bad right now.

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 06:08 PM

Email 5 sent: Only 4 over this week!

But I didn't email the previous week so can it be used up in that?!

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 06:10 PM

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Originally Posted by DP_2017

No clue

I'm herr so I'll see how it goes

I hope you have a good session with baby T!

SlumberKitty · Feb 07, 2019, 06:12 PM

My boss walked by my office. Door open. Me head on hand. Boss: you okay? Me: shakes head yes. Boss: you okay? Me, removes head from hand, shakes head yes. I mean, what else was I supposed to say? Kit

Lemoncake · Feb 07, 2019, 06:17 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

My boss walked by my office. Door open. Me head on hand. Boss: you okay? Me: shakes head yes. Boss: you okay? Me, removes head from hand, shakes head yes. I mean, what else was I supposed to say? Kit

If you don't feel comfortable disclosing anything to him, you don't have to, but if you're really not well I don't think there's anything wrong in admitting that either.

SlumberKitty · Feb 07, 2019, 06:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

If you don't feel comfortable disclosing anything to him, you don't have to, but if you're really not well I don't think there's anything wrong in admitting that either.

Yeah, but it's an emotional not well...so there's no explaining that. Although usually when I'm in my office with the lights off, people at my office just assume it's another migraine.

Feb 07, 2019, 06:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I noticed the writing under your picture. I'm honestly glad it went well. I'm proud of all the progress you've made and it does give me hope that I can also get through the whole transference thing but oh is it stupidly bad right now.

Well I got thru much of it at least..... there's one last bugger of it that continues to get the best of me. That bit is what we talked about today. I'll PM you more if you wanna hear about it.

NP_Complete · Feb 07, 2019, 06:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

Maybe you could do a phone session rather than miss it altogether?

Yes, I brought up my worries about the impending weather and he said if it did snow we could talk on the phone. We had a good session. We talked about how hard his week away was on me and he reassured me that he wasn't going to abandon me because I found it hard and I had feelings about it. He said he's glad to serve the role he is for me right now. I told him I had felt forgotten that week and he told me that he hadn't forgotten me at all and that he had thought of me. I think he was being genuine. He made me cry.

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